post #245.

freedom.

Alevels is over! happy, and yet sad. i dont know why, but ever since As ended, some part is missing. like thrs no more stuff to look forward to, although i was like "OH DAMN I CANT WAIT FOR ALVLS TO END SO I CAN ENJOY ENJOY ENJOY". but seriously the boredom is killing me. and i actually can get headaches because of being bored. excellent. the to-do-list i had came up with before Alevels was totally useless. didnt feel like doing even ONE bit. so, i shall stone and rot.

i shant be blabbering about Alevels because its a complete screw up. and yes my life is screwed thank you very much. the only thing i can do now is to hope for the best and pray that it wont be so bad that i have to kill myself and die or smth. but thats unlikely, considering the amount of things i screwed up yeah.

and anyway, prom's tmr. am totally NOT looking forward to it. i totally can imagine how i will end up being laughed at tmr when i show up in the dorky dress i bought. yes, DRESS. imma showing off my fats yeah! i guess i'll just blend in to the background tmr and die or smth. and most importantly, eat back the $ i spent for prom, which is totally a waste. and its at orchard hotel? heard the places isnt nice. blasted. then how am i going to eat back my $ then? then i guess i'll have to end up eating air for the next month or smth, or at least until i get a job. and another thing. i totally cant walk in heels. no, i cant even stand on them either. i really have no idea how people can stand/walk/run in them. if i were to do that stunt, maybe i'll just fall over and die or smth. crazyyy.

and i have had registered at BBDC! yeahhhhh imma drive! :D im gna be a potential road hazard muahahahaha. attended 2 theory lessons so far. was quite interesting but, boring somehow. imagine you having to sit thr for 100 minutes listening to the instructor blab blab blab blab blab. but lucky there were videos to watch so it wasnt too bad. the instructor kept looking at me while i was yawning away. im lucky they didnt run their car over me. but anyway, im really looking forward to my first driving lesson! yeah yeah yeah drive drive drive! (Y)

am actively looking for jobs lately. lol turned down the offer by my ex-employer. i felt so bad. she must be hating me alr ): life sucks. im like trying to find admin jobs. assistant accountant needs at least an accountant diploma or have experience in it, which I DONT HAVE. crap. this sucks man. and those i've applied. CMON GET BACK TO ME GIVE ME A CALLLLLLLL. i needa $ to finance my spendings and to pay for my driving lessons! be nice and get back to me okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

and seriously, some people ought to be killed. being tied down the mrt track and letting the train run over and reverse back a thousand times. like cmon la, is it so difficult to reply a text? will you die or smth? what the fuck is wrong with you people seriously. and maybe i shouldnt have wasted my unlimited smses on you people in the first place. i shouldnt bother even replying any text you people send me at all. wahlau waste of my energy and my unlimited smses. annoying shiats. go bang into the wall, go. whut an ass. and you people need to think youre damn great also, because you are not. at all. dont be an ass. get a life damn it.

oh well, i guess im really getting too bored or smth. i shall occupy myself with other stuffs then. goodbye.