post #246.

the bus that i used to take home everyday after school.

results will be out in 1 week's time. totally cant wait for it to end and make my plans for the future, but i really dont want to know what will be my grades. ah, the irony. pathetic, most probably. oh damn. my heart begins to race everytime i think of results, and my mood will be down instantly. its just like gravity pulling your lips down. i can be seen pouting oh-so-often. mind me not, it's just me brooding over my results. and one of the most frequent noise i'd made these past few weeks would probably be SIGH. yea, sigh. results. sigh. i'm actually quite sick of people telling me not to worry about it. i know i can't do anything about my results anymore. the outcome is fixed once i've put down my pen after the last second of the papers. it's just that because i'm the one doing the papers, i know exactly how screwed it is. i know these people mean well, but i still can't stop worrying. sigh. and another thing, i hate people telling me how screwed their results will be, when theirs are not. they hadn't seen mine. so just shut the fuck up and stop agitating me further. I MIGHT BITE YOU D:<>

ah, work has been a bore. at first i was overwhelmed by the amount of work i had to clear. apparently im hired to clear off two people's work (or so i thought previously). right now, im so free that i'm helping others to clear off their work as well! and so i did and returned back to the respective owners before the end of the day. ah, good and efficient worker, me. rbsiswearitsyourownlossfornotevenwantingtointerviewmeD:< but alas! i'd be leaving soon. the coming thursday. in preparation of my results. of course i'd leave the company for quite some reasons, but the main is still the results. i really dont like the feeling of if i got some weird combo for my results (TOUCHING WOOD), like not three not four, and dont know what to do, and i have still have to go work. oh, i forgot to mention, by office is full of alvl temps from good jcs. and they'd be comparing, which is another point that i hate. and bosses will ask. i dont want to hide in the office toilet sobbing my eyes swollen and my time away. i'll plan again, after getting results. deepest apologies to sally and joanna. by right i should be leaving when the contract ends. however, i chose to terminate it one month earlier. and frankly speaking, if not for sally and joanna, i'd left the company ages ago. ah, i'm going to miss the place! (although the pay's quite bad. damn you recruiting agency) but still, i have other priorities too. 天下无不散之筵席, sooner or later i'd have to leave. i'm just leaving a month earlier that's all.

i've watched BLACK SWAN the other day! it was pretty fascinating. the way natalie portman acted, and the plot, i was totally amazed and engaged in the film! normally while watching movies i'd be pigging out on the popcorn or whatsoever. but for the film i stopped munching so as to not miss a scene! excellent! i'd love to watch the movie again, but it's hard to find someone to watch movies nowadays. everyone has their own plans. and more importantly, no one's sick enough to watch the kind of movies i like to watch. gore/blood/horror. but hey, i do love animated films too! romedies are fine. at least they're funny. but romance, urgh count me out. i might fall asleep or make a lot of noises. its because they're so freaking boring. BORING i shall say. i don't really like local films too (oops, pardon me). its just because they're boring and dull, local actors cant act, and most importantly, no creativity! that's why i'd rather watch 爱 rather than any other local dramas.

L4D! is my latest craze. yes, i've played it before. but only for a short while. a few loose zombies. some witches. which i'd aimed perfectly at their heads so they did not get a chance to whack me with their oh-so-long-and-disgusting-claws/nails. but now, oh god. i played full scale. and i was screaming and shouting on my first full scale game. aiming and killing a zombie from far, i scream. zombie rush, i scream even louder. special infected, i AHHHHHHHHHH DIE DIE DIE and shoot everywhere, but them. i tend to step into the spitter's acid. i burst a boomer close up and get their bile all over me, attracting a zombie crowd. i get pinned by charger/hunter/jockey/smoker. i get incapacitated by the witch with just one blow. i get thrown down the building by the tank (rooftop finale). i have super super bad aiming. awesome. BUT I SWEAR IM GETTING BETTER AT IT NOW! at least i dont scream now. i just go, whack, shoot. and i'm starting to fall in love with melee attacks! yay. i love double pistols. i love the commando rifle and m16. and my aiming improved! the only thing bothering me now is that i take a long time to get out of my safe house. and the zombie rushes to attack, where they end up all lying sprawled on the ground right outside my safe house. i have to open the door to push the pile away, and close the door again to wait for the next zombie rush haha. im such a cheater :D but hey, at least i dont use cheat codes. AND I CAN LAST THROUGH A FINALE AND SURVIVE. l4d ftw, till i get sick of you.

and for those who dont reply to text/emails/msn/whatevercommunicationshitoutthere, go get yourselves killed. seriously.

ah, late hours. work tmr. oh btw, what happened to my grammar D:<