post #247.

sigh.

summary: my alvls is a complete screw up. and i am contemplating about the choices i have left with what's given my oh-so-pathetic grades. and to those people who keep asking what my grades are, SHUT THE FUCK UP. like seriously, normally im not close to you at all. and frankly speaking, we are just merely ACQUAINTANCES. why the hell should you bother about my grades? will knowing my grades do you any good? if i dont reply or say i dont want to talk about it, stop asking! who are you to me and why on earth should i tell you. i cant imagine you people to be so thick about such things. you ask, i dont reply, dont ask again! is that so difficult?

and i do really feel quite upset. life is quite unfair at times.

jogging is my latest hobby, i think. with all the weight im gaining over the past few months, i'd be crazy if i were to not try to lose them. thanks to all the buffets/delicious meals/festive goodies/snacks/etc, my appetite has grown. i can now stuff in what i thought was too much (rougly around a year ago?). food is always my best friend. eat first, lose weight later. thank god that i have a a-little-bit-more-than-average metabolism rate. so im considered still-not-very-fat-but-fat now. im sure my precious little spare tyre will be able to keep me afloat if i were to drop into a pond/pool/sea/whatever since i've almost forgotten how to swim. i will not try to cut down on the amount of food i eat. those people who go on extreme diets are crazy. why torture yourselves? no food, no life! you wont get the energy to exercise if you dont eat anyway. EAT! just exercise to shed off the weight you gained. but please, eat.

left work now, am currently not-so-enjoying-life. many things to plan and settle. and this pushes me more to adulthood. i can feel my teenage years trailing behind me slowly, until it is no more in sight, and thats when adulthood comes full blast at me. on this note, to all the people who comment on the childishness and whatever, GET A LIFE. seriously. this is not even called childish. its called having fun and reminiscence of your childhood years. why restrict yourselves on moments that you can enjoy? this is not called being mature, its called acting-mature-but-phail. the real matureness doesnt occur in everyday life. it only happens to people on certain issues and how it all depends on how they handle it. and thats when they can be truly considered MATURE, instead of small daily stuffs. learn to have fun, yo.

and i've said this at least ten times. i really hate it when people decided not to reply texts. how long would you take to reply ONE text? is it that difficult? it takes less than a minute. it wont kill you. and seriously i've never been so pissed like what i was this morning/afternoon/evening/till now. i've started swearing and cursing almost everything because of that matter. WILL YOU DIE TO REPLY ONE TEXT IN ADVANCE? cut all the excuses crap i have no wish to hear. you should stop whining and its all rubbish, most probably. and probably i shouldnt be polite and nice enough to reply those people who dont reply all the time. ought to make these people feel what its like. FUCK YOU. (damn, im really angry) and you. i dont know why, there are people wayyyyy worse than you and youre whining to them. can you spare a thought?
i really feel like jogging now. should let the cool night breeze clear my head of thoughts and all. but not in the best condition to jog right now. sigh.