Post #249.

I really need to unwind in my time machine.

It seems like everyone has got their university offers, except for me. I feel so rotten and stupid and retarded and left out in the society. Unwanted kid here, waitin for my turn to die or something. I've checked the online status, and they're all like "Application Received". Hello? It is 3 weeks to June already. Aren't you going to process my application? At least a letter of rejection would be good too, you know? At least I know my application has been processed, and not some chapalang anyhow hang down there rotting and waiting to die. Sigh, and I only can blame myself for the uh, screwed up badly Alvls results. I deserve a good kick in the head, and a throw to the wall, or a fall down a building. Ah, suicide, correct. And, SIM, get back to me soon all right? Don't let my heart do some silly stunts (like parachuting, gymnastics etc) and deprive it from transporting oxygenated blood around my body normally.

I've finished my driving course! Like in a month, which consists of going down to BBDC every day, literally, and sometimes twice a day. BBDC has become my favourite hangout for the whole month. Being jobless at that period of time, my only favourite hobby is driving. Driving up and down, left and right of the bukit batok area is so crazy, but I still can't recognise the roads and all. Damn I have no sense of directions. I will have to get an iNavigator. Wait till I get my license and I will drive around Singapore (and lose my way in some weird places)! And next friday is the TP! I'm praying hard that I will be able to make it! Pass on first try! (Because the test is really expensive - $160's no kidding sum)

Started work again. And on the way to report to work on the first day, I am like "why am I doing this to myself? Why am I finding trouble for myself? Why am I working?" It IS horrible. Imagine, during the time when I wasn't working, I would have had at least 1o hours of sleep each day. And now, it is less than 6. Reports have said that if a person has less than 8 hours of sleep each day, they will die earlier. And I am going to die so much earlier. It has been years since I had at least 8 hours of sleep each day, from a few years back already. *Y U NO SLEEP EARLY* sigh. I'm adjusting my body clock, I'm adjusting it (and I've said it like for the past year[s]). Fail much. But anyhow, the company's pretty awesome so far! I like my new staff pass. Its so pretty and cool. I even have my name printed on it, even though I am only a temp staff. And why, the tag is detachable! But most importantly, the pantry food is UNLIMITED. Tap your staff pass for unlimited drinks and biscuits! As quoted, "IT'S FOR FREE!" And then I'll stab myself to death for the weight gained.

June, oh June! Please hurry up and come quickly! For thou shalt not deprive me of living expenses. Yes, adult fare has been a bitch. I really miss my double-beeps of the ezlink, instead of the single shrilled-beeps. Annoying as hell, and they're bloodsuckers. Robbing us of our money earned from my blood (paper cuts) and sweat, and the hell of squeezing to death on the train daily. Horrible trip of two bus stops - from my house to the bus station - it costs 71 cents. If I still had student fare, it would only cost like what, less than 50 cents? The horror of the adult world. The horror of the economy. The horror the horror! Please beseech mercy upon us!

RUNNING MAN! My new favourite variety show from Korea. It's really hilarious! Particulary the Monday couple - Gary and Song Ji Hyo. I will always LOL when I see them and Gary making absurd comments and declaring his love for Ji Hyo (and sometimes I really think that he meant it from the bottom of his heart). Gary is the king when it comes to the photo games. Like, he has his own gallery and he is inside EVERY picture in a state of calmness and all. Saluting him. They should include the photo games back ): And of course, my all time favourite, KIM JONG KOOK (SPARTA/COMMANDER). I've heard his 'Lovely' before, and I've always thought that it was sung by a small and skinny guy. Instead, when I saw the music video, I was like "OMG THIS GUY IS DARN FIT AND THIS SONG IS TOO CUTE FOR HIM". But after watching Running Man, Kim Jong Kook is really really awesome and cute haha. Now I officially like tall and huge people with single eyelid and long-but-not-so-long hair, and who can act cute like how Kim Jong Kook does so naturally. Hawhawhaw.

Haven't been running lately ): This sucks. My dear brother injured his leg. Everyone else is so busy. I am not exaggerating but I seriously cannot jog on my own. This is because I WILL LOSE MY WAY IN THE PARK, and be left there to rot and die. Like c'mon, everywhere looks the same in the park. And Chinese Garden is not small okay, it stretches all the way to Jurong East, and according to my brother, it connects to uh, MacRitchie? If that's the case, I will never be able to find my way out. Chinese garden is pretty yes, but its not when you're lost and alone, and in the fear of having zombies to rush out at you, along with the possibility of the special infected (witches, tanks, smokers, hunters, jockeys, boomers) attacking you, and the thing is you're low on ammo. OKAY I'VE BEEN THINKING TOO MUCH ABOUT L4D AGAIN. But then again, special land has special infected unique to the land. Who knows, mudmen may pop out of the lake!

And one thing I am not happy about. The lies! The deception! Urgh, strong urge to give you a good kick. Like seriously, if you think its nothing much, think again. I am fighting back my desire to strangle you. Annoying pangsaiman. I will bite you D:<

When TGIF (thank god it's Friday) is over, get ready for OSIM (oh shit it's Monday).