IREFUSED

Transition.

2011-12-31T13:54:00.006+08:00

Post #251.

Goodbye, 2011.

The last day of 2011. 2011 has been a year of ups and downs for me. Many events happened in this year. Some good, some bad. Mostly bad, I feel. But nonetheless, 2011 is over. I should really stop living in the past and move my ass and work for my future.

January 2011 - March 2011

Worked in HSBC as a bank clerk. Mostly receiving returned mails from all over the country (and world). Called these people up and asked for their current addresses. Got scolded quite a bit (yes, even vulgarities). Howdy dudes, it's not my fault that your new addresses were not updated into the system. Scolding me won't solve the problem. I can't do much. I'm merely a small temp bank clerk. So take a chill pill and relax. I also got into my first ever office politics. You can say I started it, indirectly. Or I'm merely being used as a pawn just to start the office politics. Horrible, these things. I've seen my officers shooting emails at the other party and them shooting back emails. Technology has granted us the ability to start an office war using emails, and not directly face-to-face. And it's kind of horrifying to know that they are still able to smile at each other (or rather to me) after the event. But still, I learnt things. Calling hotlines and service centres are no longer a problem to me. I can just call in and (complain). It's a skill that I've acquired. And to my dear officers, I really have to thank them a lot. They taught me about the life in the office, as well as the advices on results and university choice. I can say I've learnt a lot there. And my colleagues! My dear colleagues there are so sweet. They gave me a dog plushie and a well made farewell card on my last day (I left my job earlier because I wanted to plan what I wanted to do instead of being stuck in work after the results are out). Thanks, I really appreciate it.

March 2011

Results! I did VERY badly. VERY VERY badly. It's as screwed up as can be. Choices are limited. My major down period. While I was clearing my school stuff a couple of days earlier, I've realised that I've not been studying enough for the exams. Some of my school exam papers are not done, and my assessment books. I barely touched them. Shame on me for this. I can say that I wholly deserved the results I guess. Looking back, I realised I have been spending too much time on the computer. And even for school I have been studying on and off, not much effort put in I guess. If I were given a chance to do it again, I will do it well. It's sucks to see your fellow classmates and friends all entering the universities with ease and you are there, hanging in the mid-air, clueless of what to do. And for another thing is that I do not wish to repeat my A-levels, so there's only one choice I can make. SIM, it is. And up till now, I am still not working hard. Just because the course I'm doing is 100% exam based (like the national exams), I haven't been working hard. Ought to kick myself. I hate it like this, yknow. Being a mindless/goal-less creature wandering around on earth, 得过且过. I have to change my lifestyle.

April 2011 - May 2011

Decided to learn driving before starting my new job. I'm proud to say I've finished the entire course within a month. I took 22 lessons (including an auto-transmission lesson) in total, and an additional 2 revision lessons right before my TP date. To be honest, I was a bit surprised that I actually could finish the entire course within these 22 lessons in a month (the instructors said I was considered fast in learning). I expected more lessons. There were tons of stupid things I've done while learning driving. Giving way to birds and cats, jam brake and jerk the instructors out of their seats or having a container truck nearly hitting my ass, screaming when I see birds and people on the road etc. I'm thankful for the nice instructors I got throughout my course (except for a very "delightful" instructor). And I got my license in just one try! With only 8 demerit points! I am proud of myself (for saving money because a single TP costs $160). Driving is fun overall (while I was still learning), but not really to me now. I'm quite tired of being a chauffeur actually. And I tend to curse A LOT MORE while driving because of the other drivers on the road. They don't let you cut in their lanes, honk at you for no reasons and all etc. Hello sirs, I have a triangle plate hanging on the car, you see. You were once a triangle plate-r too. Be nice! Pumping up the petrol still scares the hell out of me. This I have no idea why. Lack of experience I guess. Sigh, still lots to learn.

May 2011 - June 2011

Worked at RBS. I liked the job a lot. Probably because of the excellent welfare the bank gave to it's employees. And my fellow awesome colleagues! Free food every other day. Unlimited flow of drinks. Light workload. I spent most of my I really gained weight while working there. I'm glad that I've been a help to them while they were experiencing a shortage of manpower. Learnt a lot while I was there. It has been my best job thus far. I need to return to the office to visit them some time soon. However, I left them at the end of June. Due to my upcoming piano exam in August and I haven't mastered all the pieces even in May. I had no choice but to tender my resignation and leave. Felt extremely guilty about it but there was little I can do because of the depleted energy I had left after work. Now I understand why my parents fall asleep so easily, and anywhere. Working takes a huge turmoil on your body, especially when age is catching up with you. Why, I used to be able to withstand only 3h of sleep per day for an entire week! Now? I'm lucky if I don't feel drained with just a 5-6h of sleep. Even 8h of sleep doesn't really satisfy me now. Sigh, age is really catching up with me.

July 2011 - August 2011

Birthday month in July. Wasn't looking forward to it. Because it meant to be my last teenage year before I step into my 20s. Didn't celebrate much, just staying at home at ordering fast food back to enjoy with my family. Actually, I prefer cakes. But since my entire family dislike cakes, what to do? Bobian right. Eat fast food lor. And I nearly got a summons ticket on my birthday. Due to me forgetting about the speed camera and went speeding (almost). Luckily I slowed down in time if not there will sure be a huge hole in my pocket, as well as demerit points! I only have 12points to deduct until May so I'd better be careful about it. Anyway, I spent my entire month camping in front of the piano practicing practicing practicing. Needed to polish up my exam pieces and scales. 3 pieces, 17 pages. Scarlatti, Mozart and Mompou. An entire book on scales - Similar motions an octave apart in major, minor and melodic, third-apart and six-apart, in thirds, chromatic motion in thirds and in third-apart, appegios, dominant seventh and finally diminished seventh. And sight reading skills needed to be improved. Aural tests are critical too. For the exam, I got a lady examiner. My first reaction was "DIE. FAIL LIAO." Lady examiners tend to be much more stricter than male examiners. Screwed my Mozart badly, faulted for all my appegios and part of my other scales, did okay-ly for my sight reading I guess and anyhow whacked through my Aural. I'm tone-deaf, mind-ya. The day before the exam I was mass practicing the entire day. Until around 9-10pm that night. Because my mum wasn't in the country, I still had to do the dishes, wash the clothes, study for aural tests and go to the airport to pick up my mum in the middle of the night. And my stupid brother didn't even bothered to help me. And ended up I pressured myself so much that I began crying while practicing. Thinking of it now it's kind of stupid. I have no idea why but it's stupid. Sidetracked. Anyway, I managed to pass the exam. Phew. 117, a high pass. Not yet a merit but it's good enough, considering I only started working on all my pieces at the beginning of the year. Might take up diploma some time later, if I wanted to start teaching piano. It won't happen in anytime soon, but who knows?

August 2011 - December 2011

Started school. 3h lectures every other day. NOT FUN. 3h lectures are especially draining and torturous. I admit that I have an extremely short attention span. It's hard to stay focused for the entire 3h, and some even 6h or 9h, depending on the amount of lectures/makeup lectures I have for the day. Things are difficult to understand, plus there are no tutorials. Independent studying the entire time. As for now, all my lectures are ending soon (or soon enough), when I haven't even started revising, and oh god, it's already 2012, where the exams are coming in May and I have A LOT of things to study and revise and to clarify. Sigh. Studying is a bitch, really. Another thing to rant about, the school system sucks. Registering for the school is one thing, paying the enrollment fees is another. It's highly complicated and annoying. And I expect the upcoming examination fees to be paid is another matter of high annoyance (I do get annoyed very easily, when things are complicated and messy). The amount of attachment I feel for the school currently (in a scale of 1-10): 2? Might be lower. Can't explain. Nonetheless, I still hope to do well for my degree. Who doesn't?

December 2011

SNSD CONCERT! On the 9th December 2011. I swear I will remember this day for my life. The concert was totally AMAZING. The 9 girls were A LOT A LOT prettier in real life than on tv/videos. And my favourite SNSD member, KIM HYOYEON, absolutely gorgeous. It's sad people tend to neglect her a lot. She's really full of charms and really really gorgeous (there, I have to repeat myself - loss of words). Her dance, her smile is all full of power! Not saying the others are not, but she's my favourite. I'm biased towards her. But all in all the concert was a blast. I'm not going through the details of the concert because I'm lazy to do so. And I can say my life is complete. For their next concert, I'M SO GOING.

With 2011 already over, it's time to step on my new journey into 2012. It's time for new year resolutions!

1. No more vulgarities for me. It's time.

2. Drink at least 8 glasses of water everyday and less on unhealthy food.

3. Keep my study table and room neat and in order ALWAYS.

4. STUDY HARD.

5. Self-discipline.

6. Read more books and less on the games.

7. Stop being quick tempered and have more patience.

8. Exercise regularly.

9. Be a better daughter to my parents and a better person in general.

10. Manage my time wisely and adjust my body clock.

2011. I've had met people who changed me, and I've had lost people which hurt me deeply. People come into your life, make an impact and then they stopped contacting with no reasons at all, or things ending not as smoothly for people. On another note, I don't like things ending badly when it comes to relationships with people. For instance, the incident at the supermarket a couple of weeks ago is plain awkwardness. I'm a socially awkward person already, and this even makes me feel more awkward, even though I wasn't the one involved in the fighting. But being caught in between is not such a good thing either. I'm a peace-lover, really.

2012, may it be a great year for me, and for years ahead.

Adios.

2011-08-25T19:56:00.003+08:00

post #250.

Hi, it has been a while.

http://www.irefused.tumblr.com/

A tumblr account! Like FINALLY. It has been ages since I have been considering of creating one. Because I don't update blogs and statuses often (look at this! Isn't this enough to proof? - the computer is my tool for mainly games and films), it is yet another retarded thing to do, by creating tumblr if I don't even use it often. But I'll try! Reblogging nonsense and rubbish as often as I can, so I can add in a little laughter in my miserable life (because everything is going wrong). It's not like my tumblr account will have damn many followers, but I DON'T CARE! I still think it's pretty awesome! And most importantly, IT'S MY TUMBLR ACCOUNT AND I AM PROUD OF IT.

School's started! On the 22nd Aug. My first lecture was Principles of Accounting (POA). Almost went bonkers in the lecture (by the way, it lasted 3h and I was starving). POA is sort of uh, complex. Maybe it's because I didn't come into contact with it in anyway before that, so I was quite blur during the whole lecture, only laughing at the jokes the lecturer cracked (I think he's quite funny). But up till now I haven't even revised on what he taught! And I was still there promising myself in his lecture that I'll go home and read through whatever he said. PHAIL. I deserve a good kick. However, my timetable for the year is pretty, uh, SLACK? There's only school on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays! I didn't manage to arrange my timetable this time because I missed the submission period D:< But I'm lucky enough to get a (quite?) free timetable I guess! Gotta be happy and contented about it! I hope I can adapt to school quickly (because right now I'm not liking it - I'm still in the holiday mood). I NEED TO DO WELL IN SCHOOL (I sincerely hope so).

I've started teaching tuition! Right now my kid is a P3 girl. She is, uh, delightful. I hope she adpats to my teaching ASAP, because her EOY exams are just right round the corner and she's terribly weak in math, sad to say. My first lesson with her didn't go as smoothly as I planned - mainly because she isn't cooperating with me. I knew she was a problematic kid (judging from the words and phrases the tuition agency consultant used). I hope I can help her to do well in math! It's funny to see how much I used to hate Math. I was like, URGH MATH, when I was in S3 but JASON AND MRS LEUAR CHANGED ME. They are my favourite math teachers. FAVOURITE-ST math teachers <3

Took my g8 piano exam a couple of weeks ago. Didn't went well, despite me practicing my ass off for weeks. I even quit my job for the exam. SIGH. The day before the exam I was still practicing like mad even though it was getting late (I only stopped practicing 10+). I was literally practicing and crying at the same time near the end of it. I couldn't get my notes and pieces right! I couldn't do this and that! My trills are so messed up! My fingers are too stiff! Tremendous amounts of stress piling on me. Plus my mum's in TW for the whole week. I have TONS of housework to do and no one's helping me! My brother, instead of helping me, gives me more things to do. And, I still have to study for aural tests! In addition, I still have to pick up my mum from the airport later that night (OH YES I'VE GOTTEN MY LICENSE, NONG NONG AGO :D). Anyway, I was so stressed that I started crying ): This is how bad it was. And the next day, I mixed up my exam time -.- totally retarded. But luckily for me, I arrived early instead of being late. However, upon arrival, I saw my piano friends there and the first thing they said to me was "FEMALE EXAMINER LEH" and I went "OH MY HOLY GOD I'M FUCKED I'M GOING TO FAIL". Because apparently, female examiners tend to be more strict than male examiners. And I went in, screwed my scales (mainly the appegios and some of the scales), SCREWED MY 3 PIECES BADLY (ESPECIALLY MY MOZART), did my sight reading okay-ly (I hope), and anyhow whacked through the aural test. The lady examiner is a very very nice person (I HOPE SHE'S NICE TO MY MARKS TOO). She was playing this extract for me so I could comment. So I was like "blah blah blah, it is most probably in the romantic period, and a likely composer would be Chopin. And DEBUSSY." She stared at me and I stared at her. And I realised what I've just said and I went "NO NO NO! NOT DEBUSSY NOT DEBUSSY!" Totally retarded. I want to shoot myself. But nonetheless it's over. I just hope (hoping damn hard) that I can pass this exam (though I highly doubt so, judging the way I performed during the exam, but I still hope I can pass). 12 years learning the piano - I want it to end nicely (as in the grading exams, not my overall piano career, if I were to go into that career in the future).

My life is still pretty much screwed up. I thought it was going to get better months back, but sadly I was wrong. And it got even more wrong-er recently. Oh darn. What I'm feeling right now is like having a terrible hangover. It's like I've been drunk like hell and then now when I'm finally waking up, I'm suffering badly. The side effects of drinking (I don't touch beer/alcohol at all k, this is just an elaboration). So what I can do now to take my mind off things is to read even moar books, watch even moar movies, and throw my mind into studying (hopefully). Sigh ): I really hate the fact that people claim to understand what I'm going through right now/how I'm feeling/understand me as a person/judging me based on what they feel about me in that few meetings we have. Come on, what's your problem? Go live a life! Stop acting like you know me when you don't. I admit I'm terrible weird. I may not be a wonderful person but you ain't either. Meeting me twice and coming to decide I'm not good? Please. Go watch teletubbies and eat some grass alright? When I've said I'm going through a really really bad time right now, I am not kidding. Try screw up your lives like mine and see how it feels for yourself. But I bet you can't even screw it up like the way I did. Sometimes, I'd feel so terrible that I wouldn't even be surprised if one day I decided to end this all.

And lastly, yes, I'VE AGED. On to my last teenage year, and then I'm off hopping into the world of the 20s. NOT LOOKING FORWARD. Besides, I didn't even celebrate my 19th. I literally slept through the whole day, surfing the net, watching films or video clips on youtube, went out driving with my dad (I WENT AT A SPEED OF 100KM/H HOW FUN), almost got a summons for speeding because I forgot there's a speed camera there, and ate dinner. This is just like any normal day I had. Basically, I didn't feel like celebrating. It is nothing worth celebrating about anyway. I don't like to celebrate to the fact that I'VE BECOME OLDER. I'll be turning 20 in less than a year's time NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU! But this is life. We can't change it. No one ever ever escape the clutches of getting old and eventually dying, unless you're some freak vampire (I'm referring to Twilight - Harry Potter is so much more awesome-r). I have no idea what I am talking about. I think I have ADHD.

I'm already missing my 8 month long holidays.

2011-05-08T16:26:00.002+08:00

Post #249.

I really need to unwind in my time machine.

It seems like everyone has got their university offers, except for me. I feel so rotten and stupid and retarded and left out in the society. Unwanted kid here, waitin for my turn to die or something. I've checked the online status, and they're all like "Application Received". Hello? It is 3 weeks to June already. Aren't you going to process my application? At least a letter of rejection would be good too, you know? At least I know my application has been processed, and not some chapalang anyhow hang down there rotting and waiting to die. Sigh, and I only can blame myself for the uh, screwed up badly Alvls results. I deserve a good kick in the head, and a throw to the wall, or a fall down a building. Ah, suicide, correct. And, SIM, get back to me soon all right? Don't let my heart do some silly stunts (like parachuting, gymnastics etc) and deprive it from transporting oxygenated blood around my body normally.

I've finished my driving course! Like in a month, which consists of going down to BBDC every day, literally, and sometimes twice a day. BBDC has become my favourite hangout for the whole month. Being jobless at that period of time, my only favourite hobby is driving. Driving up and down, left and right of the bukit batok area is so crazy, but I still can't recognise the roads and all. Damn I have no sense of directions. I will have to get an iNavigator. Wait till I get my license and I will drive around Singapore (and lose my way in some weird places)! And next friday is the TP! I'm praying hard that I will be able to make it! Pass on first try! (Because the test is really expensive - $160's no kidding sum)

Started work again. And on the way to report to work on the first day, I am like "why am I doing this to myself? Why am I finding trouble for myself? Why am I working?" It IS horrible. Imagine, during the time when I wasn't working, I would have had at least 1o hours of sleep each day. And now, it is less than 6. Reports have said that if a person has less than 8 hours of sleep each day, they will die earlier. And I am going to die so much earlier. It has been years since I had at least 8 hours of sleep each day, from a few years back already. *Y U NO SLEEP EARLY* sigh. I'm adjusting my body clock, I'm adjusting it (and I've said it like for the past year[s]). Fail much. But anyhow, the company's pretty awesome so far! I like my new staff pass. Its so pretty and cool. I even have my name printed on it, even though I am only a temp staff. And why, the tag is detachable! But most importantly, the pantry food is UNLIMITED. Tap your staff pass for unlimited drinks and biscuits! As quoted, "IT'S FOR FREE!" And then I'll stab myself to death for the weight gained.

June, oh June! Please hurry up and come quickly! For thou shalt not deprive me of living expenses. Yes, adult fare has been a bitch. I really miss my double-beeps of the ezlink, instead of the single shrilled-beeps. Annoying as hell, and they're bloodsuckers. Robbing us of our money earned from my blood (paper cuts) and sweat, and the hell of squeezing to death on the train daily. Horrible trip of two bus stops - from my house to the bus station - it costs 71 cents. If I still had student fare, it would only cost like what, less than 50 cents? The horror of the adult world. The horror of the economy. The horror the horror! Please beseech mercy upon us!

RUNNING MAN! My new favourite variety show from Korea. It's really hilarious! Particulary the Monday couple - Gary and Song Ji Hyo. I will always LOL when I see them and Gary making absurd comments and declaring his love for Ji Hyo (and sometimes I really think that he meant it from the bottom of his heart). Gary is the king when it comes to the photo games. Like, he has his own gallery and he is inside EVERY picture in a state of calmness and all. Saluting him. They should include the photo games back ): And of course, my all time favourite, KIM JONG KOOK (SPARTA/COMMANDER). I've heard his 'Lovely' before, and I've always thought that it was sung by a small and skinny guy. Instead, when I saw the music video, I was like "OMG THIS GUY IS DARN FIT AND THIS SONG IS TOO CUTE FOR HIM". But after watching Running Man, Kim Jong Kook is really really awesome and cute haha. Now I officially like tall and huge people with single eyelid and long-but-not-so-long hair, and who can act cute like how Kim Jong Kook does so naturally. Hawhawhaw.

Haven't been running lately ): This sucks. My dear brother injured his leg. Everyone else is so busy. I am not exaggerating but I seriously cannot jog on my own. This is because I WILL LOSE MY WAY IN THE PARK, and be left there to rot and die. Like c'mon, everywhere looks the same in the park. And Chinese Garden is not small okay, it stretches all the way to Jurong East, and according to my brother, it connects to uh, MacRitchie? If that's the case, I will never be able to find my way out. Chinese garden is pretty yes, but its not when you're lost and alone, and in the fear of having zombies to rush out at you, along with the possibility of the special infected (witches, tanks, smokers, hunters, jockeys, boomers) attacking you, and the thing is you're low on ammo. OKAY I'VE BEEN THINKING TOO MUCH ABOUT L4D AGAIN. But then again, special land has special infected unique to the land. Who knows, mudmen may pop out of the lake!

And one thing I am not happy about. The lies! The deception! Urgh, strong urge to give you a good kick. Like seriously, if you think its nothing much, think again. I am fighting back my desire to strangle you. Annoying pangsaiman. I will bite you D:<

When TGIF (thank god it's Friday) is over, get ready for OSIM (oh shit it's Monday).

2011-04-30T02:21:00.002+08:00

post #248.

TIME MACHINE - THE CLICK FIVE

Oh what mess you've got the best of my heart
It broke and now it's just a joke
Cause you're moving right along
I'm still here and you're gone
Oh what shame
You know I didnt mean for the winds to change
Won't ever be the same
Cause the kisses that you blew
Could never ever move

I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
I just need to unwind
In my time machine

Hey you
Ya i'm talking to you
You lost the love in bed
And now it's just dead
Cause it didn't mean a thing
Waiting for a ring
Hey it's a game
And ain't it a shame that it's just a show
I thought that this was love
But I can't be fooled again
I'm cryin' out
But I can't give in

I think you need some time by yourself
Without anybody else
You just need to unwind
In your time machine
You need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
You just need to unwind
In your time machine

All the things that we could change
(things that we could change)
Now we'll never be the same

I think I need some time by myself
Without anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
I need to go far away
A few years back would be ok
I just need to unwind
In my time machine

By Myself
I don't need anybody else
I just need to unwind
In my time machine
In my time machine

2011-03-12T18:54:00.004+08:00

post #247.

sigh.

summary: my alvls is a complete screw up. and i am contemplating about the choices i have left with what's given my oh-so-pathetic grades. and to those people who keep asking what my grades are, SHUT THE FUCK UP. like seriously, normally im not close to you at all. and frankly speaking, we are just merely ACQUAINTANCES. why the hell should you bother about my grades? will knowing my grades do you any good? if i dont reply or say i dont want to talk about it, stop asking! who are you to me and why on earth should i tell you. i cant imagine you people to be so thick about such things. you ask, i dont reply, dont ask again! is that so difficult?

and i do really feel quite upset. life is quite unfair at times.

jogging is my latest hobby, i think. with all the weight im gaining over the past few months, i'd be crazy if i were to not try to lose them. thanks to all the buffets/delicious meals/festive goodies/snacks/etc, my appetite has grown. i can now stuff in what i thought was too much (rougly around a year ago?). food is always my best friend. eat first, lose weight later. thank god that i have a a-little-bit-more-than-average metabolism rate. so im considered still-not-very-fat-but-fat now. im sure my precious little spare tyre will be able to keep me afloat if i were to drop into a pond/pool/sea/whatever since i've almost forgotten how to swim. i will not try to cut down on the amount of food i eat. those people who go on extreme diets are crazy. why torture yourselves? no food, no life! you wont get the energy to exercise if you dont eat anyway. EAT! just exercise to shed off the weight you gained. but please, eat.

left work now, am currently not-so-enjoying-life. many things to plan and settle. and this pushes me more to adulthood. i can feel my teenage years trailing behind me slowly, until it is no more in sight, and thats when adulthood comes full blast at me. on this note, to all the people who comment on the childishness and whatever, GET A LIFE. seriously. this is not even called childish. its called having fun and reminiscence of your childhood years. why restrict yourselves on moments that you can enjoy? this is not called being mature, its called acting-mature-but-phail. the real matureness doesnt occur in everyday life. it only happens to people on certain issues and how it all depends on how they handle it. and thats when they can be truly considered MATURE, instead of small daily stuffs. learn to have fun, yo.

and i've said this at least ten times. i really hate it when people decided not to reply texts. how long would you take to reply ONE text? is it that difficult? it takes less than a minute. it wont kill you. and seriously i've never been so pissed like what i was this morning/afternoon/evening/till now. i've started swearing and cursing almost everything because of that matter. WILL YOU DIE TO REPLY ONE TEXT IN ADVANCE? cut all the excuses crap i have no wish to hear. you should stop whining and its all rubbish, most probably. and probably i shouldnt be polite and nice enough to reply those people who dont reply all the time. ought to make these people feel what its like. FUCK YOU. (damn, im really angry) and you. i dont know why, there are people wayyyyy worse than you and youre whining to them. can you spare a thought?
i really feel like jogging now. should let the cool night breeze clear my head of thoughts and all. but not in the best condition to jog right now. sigh.

2011-02-24T23:48:00.004+08:00

post #246.

the bus that i used to take home everyday after school.

results will be out in 1 week's time. totally cant wait for it to end and make my plans for the future, but i really dont want to know what will be my grades. ah, the irony. pathetic, most probably. oh damn. my heart begins to race everytime i think of results, and my mood will be down instantly. its just like gravity pulling your lips down. i can be seen pouting oh-so-often. mind me not, it's just me brooding over my results. and one of the most frequent noise i'd made these past few weeks would probably be SIGH. yea, sigh. results. sigh. i'm actually quite sick of people telling me not to worry about it. i know i can't do anything about my results anymore. the outcome is fixed once i've put down my pen after the last second of the papers. it's just that because i'm the one doing the papers, i know exactly how screwed it is. i know these people mean well, but i still can't stop worrying. sigh. and another thing, i hate people telling me how screwed their results will be, when theirs are not. they hadn't seen mine. so just shut the fuck up and stop agitating me further. I MIGHT BITE YOU D:<>

ah, work has been a bore. at first i was overwhelmed by the amount of work i had to clear. apparently im hired to clear off two people's work (or so i thought previously). right now, im so free that i'm helping others to clear off their work as well! and so i did and returned back to the respective owners before the end of the day. ah, good and efficient worker, me. ~~rbsiswearitsyourownlossfornotevenwantingtointerviewmeD:<~~ but alas! i'd be leaving soon. the coming thursday. in preparation of my results. of course i'd leave the company for quite some reasons, but the main is still the results. i really dont like the feeling of if i got some weird combo for my results (TOUCHING WOOD), like not three not four, and dont know what to do, and i have still have to go work. oh, i forgot to mention, by office is full of alvl temps from good jcs. and they'd be comparing, which is another point that i hate. and bosses will ask. i dont want to hide in the office toilet sobbing my eyes swollen and my time away. i'll plan again, after getting results. deepest apologies to sally and joanna. by right i should be leaving when the contract ends. however, i chose to terminate it one month earlier. and frankly speaking, if not for sally and joanna, i'd left the company ages ago. ah, i'm going to miss the place! (although the pay's quite bad. damn you recruiting agency) but still, i have other priorities too. 天下无不散之筵席, sooner or later i'd have to leave. i'm just leaving a month earlier that's all.

i've watched BLACK SWAN the other day! it was pretty fascinating. the way natalie portman acted, and the plot, i was totally amazed and engaged in the film! normally while watching movies i'd be pigging out on the popcorn or whatsoever. but for the film i stopped munching so as to not miss a scene! excellent! i'd love to watch the movie again, but it's hard to find someone to watch movies nowadays. everyone has their own plans. and more importantly, no one's sick enough to watch the kind of movies i like to watch. gore/blood/horror. but hey, i do love animated films too! romedies are fine. at least they're funny. but romance, urgh count me out. i might fall asleep or make a lot of noises. its because they're so freaking boring. BORING i shall say. i don't really like local films too (oops, pardon me). its just because they're boring and dull, local actors cant act, and most importantly, no creativity! that's why i'd rather watch 爱 rather than any other local dramas.

L4D! is my latest craze. yes, i've played it before. but only for a short while. a few loose zombies. some witches. which i'd aimed perfectly at their heads so they did not get a chance to whack me with their oh-so-long-and-disgusting-claws/nails. but now, oh god. i played full scale. and i was screaming and shouting on my first full scale game. aiming and killing a zombie from far, i scream. zombie rush, i scream even louder. special infected, i AHHHHHHHHHH DIE DIE DIE and shoot everywhere, but them. i tend to step into the spitter's acid. i burst a boomer close up and get their bile all over me, attracting a zombie crowd. i get pinned by charger/hunter/jockey/smoker. i get incapacitated by the witch with just one blow. i get thrown down the building by the tank (rooftop finale). i have super super bad aiming. awesome. BUT I SWEAR IM GETTING BETTER AT IT NOW! at least i dont scream now. i just go, whack, shoot. and i'm starting to fall in love with melee attacks! yay. i love double pistols. i love the commando rifle and m16. and my aiming improved! the only thing bothering me now is that i take a long time to get out of my safe house. and the zombie rushes to attack, where they end up all lying sprawled on the ground right outside my safe house. i have to open the door to push the pile away, and close the door again to wait for the next zombie rush haha. im such a cheater :D but hey, at least i dont use cheat codes. AND I CAN LAST THROUGH A FINALE AND SURVIVE. l4d ftw, till i get sick of you.

and for those who dont reply to text/emails/msn/whatevercommunicationshitoutthere, go get yourselves killed. seriously.

ah, late hours. work tmr. oh btw, what happened to my grammar D:<

2010-12-05T13:53:00.002+08:00

post #245.

freedom.

Alevels is over! happy, and yet sad. i dont know why, but ever since As ended, some part is missing. like thrs no more stuff to look forward to, although i was like "OH DAMN I CANT WAIT FOR ALVLS TO END SO I CAN ENJOY ENJOY ENJOY". but seriously the boredom is killing me. and i actually can get headaches because of being bored. excellent. the to-do-list i had came up with before Alevels was totally useless. didnt feel like doing even ONE bit. so, i shall stone and rot.

i shant be blabbering about Alevels because its a complete screw up. and yes my life is screwed thank you very much. the only thing i can do now is to hope for the best and pray that it wont be so bad that i have to kill myself and die or smth. but thats unlikely, considering the amount of things i screwed up yeah.

and anyway, prom's tmr. am totally NOT looking forward to it. i totally can imagine how i will end up being laughed at tmr when i show up in the dorky dress i bought. yes, DRESS. imma showing off my fats yeah! i guess i'll just blend in to the background tmr and die or smth. and most importantly, eat back the $ i spent for prom, which is totally a waste. and its at orchard hotel? heard the places isnt nice. blasted. then how am i going to eat back my $ then? then i guess i'll have to end up eating air for the next month or smth, or at least until i get a job. and another thing. i totally cant walk in heels. no, i cant even stand on them either. i really have no idea how people can stand/walk/run in them. if i were to do that stunt, maybe i'll just fall over and die or smth. crazyyy.

and i have had registered at BBDC! yeahhhhh imma drive! :D im gna be a potential road hazard muahahahaha. attended 2 theory lessons so far. was quite interesting but, boring somehow. imagine you having to sit thr for 100 minutes listening to the instructor blab blab blab blab blab. but lucky there were videos to watch so it wasnt too bad. the instructor kept looking at me while i was yawning away. im lucky they didnt run their car over me. but anyway, im really looking forward to my first driving lesson! yeah yeah yeah drive drive drive! (Y)

am actively looking for jobs lately. lol turned down the offer by my ex-employer. i felt so bad. she must be hating me alr ): life sucks. im like trying to find admin jobs. assistant accountant needs at least an accountant diploma or have experience in it, which I DONT HAVE. crap. this sucks man. and those i've applied. CMON GET BACK TO ME GIVE ME A CALLLLLLLL. i needa $ to finance my spendings and to pay for my driving lessons! be nice and get back to me okayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

and seriously, some people ought to be killed. being tied down the mrt track and letting the train run over and reverse back a thousand times. like cmon la, is it so difficult to reply a text? will you die or smth? what the fuck is wrong with you people seriously. and maybe i shouldnt have wasted my unlimited smses on you people in the first place. i shouldnt bother even replying any text you people send me at all. wahlau waste of my energy and my unlimited smses. annoying shiats. go bang into the wall, go. whut an ass. and you people need to think youre damn great also, because you are not. at all. dont be an ass. get a life damn it.

oh well, i guess im really getting too bored or smth. i shall occupy myself with other stuffs then. goodbye.

wake up call.

2010-06-28T21:27:00.005+08:00

post #244.

WOMAN, GO STUDY!

this is to make me feel motivated to study. since this page is my IE's homepage, i will get to see the above message everytime i try to go some website and slack my time off when im supposed to be studying. alvls is no joke darling, study! (i seriously hope this works)

regretting, and reflecting.

for the whole past june holidays, i *gasps* was totally rotting away, and then started my panic attack when i realised thrs only one more week to myes. what the hell have i been doing? havent i promised myself that i will study and mug hard during the june holidays? i really really really ought to bang into the wall to become some roti prata and punch myself hard in the nose. lazy bitch, you. urgh, i hate myself.

have been reading this series: Lemony Snicket's A Series Of Unfortunate Events. i swear i had the entire set for like almost 6 years, but ive never read the whole complete set before. my maximum was at book 8, The Hostile Hospital, which i abandoned halfway. now im reading the whole series again and im quite determined to finish reading the whole set, or else it will be just a waste of money for getting the whole set to collect dust on my table. im at book 7 now, by the way, The Vile Village. i still vaugely remember how i used to love the series. i was like going gaga over the series when i was younger, 12 years old, maybe? then when i was like reading reading, the books got thicker and thicker (to me it was thick at that age) and then i lost my interest. haha. but hey, i've survived the Harry Potter series TWICE, and the words are so much tinier than this set, so why cant i just finish this series too huh? seriously, the series is intended for children, and since im not a kid anymore, i clear the books like FAST. really fast. i can like finish almost one quarter of the book on my journey back home from jurong point. THAT IS FAST. okay, fast for me, considering i dont really read a lot, but still, i read. after this series, i will be digging for new books to read. i guess its time to visit kinokuniya yay. get new books! i want my occupation to become: BOOKWORM.

back to mye. today's math paper was a small disaster. i should pass i guess? considering i've nvr touched DE so i left question 3ahence of section A blank when it comes to the integrating. and the second part, i hope im correct. but statistics! why cant i get you! urgh. PNC WHY IS IT THAT YOU ARE SO TOUGH AND ANNOYING? i really hope i can pass the paper and get at least a C or a B MINIMUM. im not daring to hope for an A. that is quite impossible, and given my brains, its even more more more more MORE impossible. chemistry on wednesday! great i need to clear off my organic and physical chem theories by tonight. then maybe i'll watch the match between BRAZIL and CHILE. come on! its world cup! once in every 4 years. might not even see the next one because the world may end on 2012. im supporting brazil! they're the love :D but anyway, i still have a physics paper on friday! i really hope the tuition works because i sort of understand the topics more after joining the tuition? really really hope that my physics grades will improve. i got a U. so i hope this time at least an E or a D. thats a pass, from U grade. improvement alr okay! if i get higher thats even better hahaha. and after the papers i will go back home to recover my lost hours of sleep. you should look at how large my eye bags are and how black my dark circles are horrible. and my eyes were still swollen this morning and i looked like i was punched or smth. sleeping (Y)

i bought a new shirt from SPCA! :D it said " STOP ANIMAL ABUSE" on the front. pretty shirt hahaha. i like it. have been asking for it since like at least a month ago and finally thrs stock hooray. now i have 2 SPCA shirts! :D yay i like i like hahaha. but each costs $16 for god's sake. but the money goes to the SPCA funding so i dont mind hahaha. i like bosco! the dog thr. sooooo cute haha. i played peek-a-boo with that handsome boy and before i covered his eyes he alr close them himself haha. sooooo cute! haha i was like AWWWWWWW. then i hug hug hug kiss kiss kiss lol. im a sucker for animals, really. this leads me to recall one incident. the other time i was at my cousin's place and i was carrying wangwang around. then wangwang fell asleep on my legs. then my cousin dropped something heavy on the floor, producing a loud thud. since i was beside her, and you know the nearer we are to the source of sound, the amplitude and intensity are higher, so, wangwang was like shocked and woke up. i ended up scolding my cousin for waking wangwang up hahaha, when my cousin was like totaly innocent. i should be saying "aiyo, be more careful" haha. but instead she received a scolding from me saying "see lah, scare wangwang. CLUMSY" lol im an idiot. and i should i stop my volunteering duties at the SPCA since alvls are coming? besides SPCA is at BARTLEY. bloody far. one hour mrt journey thr. and i have to wake up in the morning and to reach by like 8am. horrible. but i like it thr. so every fornight saturdays i will be like "crap i dont feel like going seriously" and by the time i reach the place i will be like "HELLO DARLINGS IM GLAD I CAME :D" hahaha, i like animals :D

and seriously i dont get how things work nowadays. horrible horrible horrible bunch of people. eat your own masks. bullshit. and yes i know its very polite of you guys! thank you! *rolling eyes furiously*

so much for digressing. back to books. and soccer at 2.30am :D ciao!

2010-05-06T20:05:00.002+08:00

第　２４３　篇：

有时候，华语是一个能让你发泄情绪的管道。

肤浅。真的很肤浅。没想到事情过那么久了你还在那里耿耿于怀。这简直就是幼稚，不成熟。想想看，这是你为人师表该有的行为吗？既然你身为他人的长辈，身为他人的导师，这是你应该做，应该说的吗？你这根本就是带着有色的眼镜看人，歧视别人呀！因为一句无心的话，你就在他其他的方面都扣分。你不应该为了一点小事而怀恨到现在。你知道吗，我们还是处于在成长期间的年轻人，思想还不够成熟，所以言起行举止难免会有不得当的时候。身为导师的你就应该给予适当的教育和辅导，而不是公报私仇，落井下石，趁着这个机会贬低别人。你这种行为不就是像一个没有理智的人吗？不懂得用逻辑思考，不会观察颜色。他人认为的笑话你就当真，随口说的一句话就让你就觉得不爽。是耍流氓吗？这简直就是霸道！霸道呀！虽然在外表上你显得幽默，经常“灌输”我们要懂得怎样怎样怎样，其实你只是说一套，做一套，根本就没有任何的行动来证明你的为人。这一切的一切都证明了你是一个特别小气，霸道，蛮横无理，公报私仇，幼稚，思想不成熟，还经常戴着有色眼镜来看待他人的人。再加上你经常把自己的不愉快发泄在他人身上，践踏着他人来抬高自己的价值。做什么事，说什么话都没有考虑到后果。不是应该三思而后行吗？说话或行动前请你记得用逻辑思考，以免以后让人都看不起你，认为你所说的，所做的都不应当别论，最后成为人人喊打的过街老鼠。　

完。

2010-05-04T21:34:00.003+08:00

post #242.

life sucks, you know.

today was quite unpleasant. no, scratch that. VERY UNPLEASANT. got back my chem lect test. woah man. gg. seriously, i hate myself for being stupid and retarded. i mean, how stupid/retard can one person get? just look at me. im the live example of that.

and we had this vp dialouge session today for assembly. 4 more weeks to june holidays. 8 more weeks to common test. 15 more weeks to prelims. 26 more weeks to alvls. and my results currently? BDU/C. damn fked up. i feel like chopping off my brain with a chopper and and stuff textbooks and notes inside my empty skull. nothing gets into my brains. even if i study a lot a lot a lot, im still as dumb as ever. argh. fucked up life.

and the thing is, thrs still piles of undone work. zzz. im damn sick of living. i feel like escaping from this terrible mess and shithole im in now. i screwed my j1 work like thrs no tmr. and j2 work, blah that. zzz. can some kind soul pleaseeeee save me.

emo-ing is my forte. fuck life.

2010-05-03T22:16:00.002+08:00

post #241.

flashback.

i went into my brother's room just now, just for the sake of irritating him and taking my hairband. i went in and said: OOOOOI. AH PUI. then he replied: AH SHUDDAP LAH. and under instinct, i zoomed out of the room asap in fear of getting whacked, and i didnt close the door properly. and my dear brother went: OOI. i remember how i used to do that when we were younger, and for revenge, he would come into my room and leave the door wide open. childish-ness in us, yes. but the thing is i cant remember how long that was ago. at least 4/5 years. i miss my childhood.

indeed, lifes gonna suck when you grow up. and it suck pretty bad right now.

2010-04-19T16:05:00.002+08:00

post #240.

trust me, i havent been keeping to my resolutions. what a failure.

school is effing tiring as usual, but its the alvls year. i shant complain. just 7 more months baby, 7 more months. i want my AAA/A. but so far its BEU/E? what the hell. i still have a long way to go. NTU BUSINESS ACCOUNTANCY. wait for me.

pw results are out! B. damn. i knew i cant get an A for that, because our groups WR is wayyyyy too shitty. but looking at the number of As some other classes get, its hard not to feel depressed. gawd. anything lesser than an A is so not very nice.

and the school is conducting file checks. trust me i will get booked. because many of my tutorials are like half done and blah. but im considered a neat person. so dont complain much. at least they get to see my pretty handwriting. HAHAHA. so byl. but seriously, trying to keep in order all your stuff into a file is so tiring, when you have like a few piles of shit lying in different corners of your room, looking for worksheets can be tiring.

PERFUME, THE STORY OF A MURDERER. its a nice book. and i bought the book like 5 months ago. and im still stuck in the middle. not proceeding on yet. just that i havent been travelling on the train recently. even if i did, thrs no seats for me to settle down and read. reading while standing requires skill which i will only have during december when im working.

200 more days or so to Alvls.

and im getting sick of facebook alr. thrs nothing to do on facebook, except for finding those funny groups to join, or liking other people's status. AND i dont play the games on facebook alr. maple, i have also quitted. thrs no point lah. look, i have a lvl 61 character in aquila. then i went on to start a new character in bootes. its like lvl 34 now. and thinking of playing it till lvl 61 AGAIN its so horrible. i dont want to think. i took 4 years to get my character to lvl 61. so i guess i need another 4 years. bahhhhhhhhh. its better not to play. it gets tiring easily.

idk why, but the afternoon is such a perfect timing for naps. seriously if no one wakes me, i can slp till the next day afternoon, or until im hungry.

yes im guilty, for not practicing piano for months. SORRY. i've got a feeling i play like crap now. good job. now i have to train back my skills.

we are the world 25 for haiti is a nice song. REALLY NICE. im like so addicted to it right now. thanks mrchai. and i think jamie foxx is hot in the vid. and josh groban can sing! i like his voice. jennifer nettles is a good singer. and so is celine dione and fergie. and i like the rap part. jennifer hudson is cool. IN CONCLUSION, I LOVE THE SONG.

lifes still THAT depressing. and so are the people in it. BOCHUP, is still what i think is the best.

MATH LECTURE TEST TMR! great. i suck in statistics. sersiously, i rather do 1000 differentiation/integration qns than do statistics. i dno why i just cant do statistics. blame my pea brain. i dont even have an A for math ):

i think i shall run alr. bye blog.

nou se mond la, nou se timoun yo

2010-03-08T23:55:00.003+08:00

post #239.

lifes depressing recently, you know.

a depression may occur
# when you feel like slashing your own wrists and seeing yourself bleed
# when life is meaningless all of a sudden
# when you lost your goals
# when everything is not right
# when you are feeling so stressed up
# when you cant catch your breath
# when you have to force a smile on your face and act like nothings happened
# when you dont feel well
# when you feel like screaming your lungs out, but cant
# when you want to cry, but cant
# when you have troubles, too much troubles
# when everything seems to piss you off
# when you just feel like smashing and destroying everything

there are so many whens. which one really occurs? congratulations.

theory paper this saturday! im scared. so im like doing my theory practice paper now. i really want to pass this paper. like seriously, i want to pass it.

do you know, when you are feeling really really down, listening to your favourite singer really really helps? even though its just for that few minutes.

back to theory (Y)

~~my first point is just so awesome. cheers.~~

2010-03-07T02:23:00.004+08:00

post #238.

cny came and went.

time flies. it seemed ytd that school just started. and i was thr, grumbling non stop about the tests and bullshit we have. and now we are approaching to the last week of term 1 alr. time to buck up lady. no more slacking or else i will have to smash your dear computer :D

so, i have been playing maple, AGAIN. yes, again. dont tell me to grow up. its suddenly fun okay. like, 2/3 years not touching the game and then when you started playing again, things changed A LOT, and its all interesting again. i see a connection of that to the real world. things really change fast. but the difference is that, in maple, when you die, you just lose exp and you can start all over again. but in the real world, when you die, you die. no more second try. opportunities come and go. thrs not a single "second chance" as we call it. no no no. this is especially so when the alvl results coming out on friday. we had to stay back in school to watch our seniors take their results. it was really mentally stressful. serious. Alvls, doesnt sound as easy as just saying it. it takes hard work.

i think i've become a bit more mature alr. i can see things which i used to not. i dno why, they just become more obvious. maybe living in a world like this trains you up. i guess so. and i learnt how to infer things from a person's actions and words like quite fast alr, as compared to the time i needed last time. i guess we are all actors.

so, i have not been keeping to my new year resolutions checklist well. epic failure. so thats why i shall come up with post-cny resolutions.
1. get AAA/A and at least a C for gp for my dear alvls!
2. study harder and stop procastinating.
3. keep awayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy from the computer unless necessary.
4. keep myself healthy.
5. get my last gold for napfa.
6. pack my room AGAIN. its messed up alr.
7. pass my grade 6 theory paper. 1 more week to go baby.
8. WEAR RETAINERS. i dont want my teeth to look like how it used to be again.
9. practice pianoooooooooooooooooooo.
10. DONT SLEEP SO LATE. shall keep it to before 12.30am
11. save money.
12. be nice and shut the fuck up.
13. cut down on my cursing and swearing. but the thing is i dont curse and swear a lot. its just that the thing/person is annoying me.
14. readdddddddddddddddd!
15. BE CHAO MUGGER.
16. see NELSON! (L)
17. dont talk back to my parents and listen to them.
18. dont fight/quarrel with my brothers, but they should love me more.
19. KEEP MY STUDY TABLE EMPTY AND CLEANNN SO THAT I HAVE THE MOOD TO DO HOMEWORK.
20. de-stress appropriately.
(Y)

tests every week! even during the march holidays. HELLO DEAR SCHOOL MANAGEMENT WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU ALL THINKING? WE NEED A BREAK. WE ARE NOT SUPERHEROS! ARE YOU TRYING TO LIKE FUCKING TIRE US TO DEATH AND THEN SEE ALL OF US FUCKING COLLAPSE IN SCHOOL AND STUFF. GIVE US SOME FUCKING REST WILL YOU?
sorry for my language but im a bit agitated right now.

with cny gone, thrs like 36 more weeks to alvls. DAMN IT. time is running out. and i still have year 1 work to revise. year 2 work is soooooo fucking disastrous and difficult. like what the fuck? every teacher is rushing through the syllabus. nahhhhhhbei. we dont even have time to rest and catch our breath then we have new stuff to do and learn. niaoster. seriously, sometimes i get so fucking stressed up and i will be like thinking, what the fuck am i doing in a jc? but seriously, things will be worse if i go poly. at least thrs an alvl for me to work hard to. so i might as well shut the fuck up and study hard for my alvls? 9 more months only darling. ENDURE BABY, ENDUREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

headache in same spot for 2 plus weeks. damn im afraid.

~~and seriously, fuck you. you suck like one whole fucking big time. screw off you fuckface.~~

2010-02-01T23:39:00.002+08:00

post #237.

moral of the story: bochup.

school has been pretty hectic. no, i mean not pretty hectic. VERY HECTIC. thr are tests every week! omg. first was maths. that one was okay-ly done. 5-6 marks of careless. i ought to go bang myself on the wall. then was chemistry. if im lucky i will be able to pass i guess. im not too sureeeee but heck that first. the results arent out yet. then thr was this DE test. seriously i had a big big big big GIANTIC mental block that day. cant solve a single shit. FUCK THE TEST SERIOUSLY. i think i will score probably a 3? if im lucky. and this coming friday will be PHYSICS. one of my lousiest subject. damn. 5 chapters to be test: DC circuit, thermal physics, circular motion, gravitation and simple harmonic motion. seriously, ALL THESE TOPICS I HAVENT BEEN LISTENING. because either i have forgotten, or the lecturer is talking to himself (ie in the case of dcc) or its too cheem for me to understand (this falls into the category of everything, because my skull is too thick).

i swear, every tutorial and lecture i have been looking more and more and more and more and MORE at the clock. roughly about 5min/look. can tell how much i hate being in lectures and tutorials? lol. i dont mind studying. i just mind the tests and homework and the stress and etc etc. plus, i have a theory paper during march, first saturday of the school holidays. damn. IM PRAYING HARD THAT I WILL PASS. i shall be doing my practice papers diligently and not anyhow anyhow scribble one answer down thr and wait for my cher to go through. yes, i want to be a good girl. but the melody writing part sucks. hello im not a composer or smth i cant compose a nice rhythm just like that. DONT LAUGH AT MY RIDICULOUS MELODY (im directing this comment to the examiners).

i've gotten, FAT. i gained like 2kg since last year when i took my height and weight. and apparently the height indicator has smth wrong because i thought i grew taller by a bit. but i didnt. you know why, because the height indicator thr has a stupid hole at the legs thr. MAKES ME SHORT. okay, so in conclusion, IM NOT SHORT. THE FLOOR IS UNEVEN. and my weight. DISASTROUS. i need to LOSE WEIGHT. like seriously. i need to lose weight. im pretty serious about this now. im not going to let myself become SO FAT and then start regretting later and trying to exercise like mad to lose all those fatty meat on me. before the fatty meat starts to accumulate more, i shall just get rid of it first. the sit up with heavy medicine ball works. i had muscle ache for 2 days after that. GOOD I LOVE THIS. so i shall go steal my brothers' weight and use them to train situps. cool (Y) and the fatty meat on my thighs, im so going to say byebye to you guys. i wont miss you. so dont come back okay.

oh ya oh ya, jurong superbowl has a pet shop, and thrs a black dog inside! SOOOOOOOO CUTE. when it sees me it will sniff sniff sniff and then lick my hand, AND THEN STAND UP ON ITS HIND LEGS AND PAW PAW WITH ME (L) then i will be like AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW. then i will keep on *ahem* molesting it. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. i will be looking forward to my volunteering shifts at the spca! :D and, the jj cat has gotten fatter.

j1s started school. and the j2s were complaining that the stupid j1s were koping up all the spaces in the canteen. think again. when we were j1s and starting school, arent we doing the same to our seniors? are we in any position to complain? i dont think so. so just shut up and find a seat.

thought a lot over these few days. no wonder the lines on my hands are like getting more and more complex. finally somethings became clear to me. like how this person or that person really is. my opinions have changed here and there and still, i continue to stand by my point on some other people. 2 morals of the story: 1. bochup (main important point) 2. just smile and act blur. though im not a perfect person myself, in fact im a big asshole, but im not as shitty as them.

suddenly i miss my job at taka. its a routine. wake up, bathe, mrt to taka, work work work, mrt home, sleep. no need to bother about anything else. and you get paid for stoning, cursing at the fucked up system and people most of the time. i dont have to bother about sales a lot because i dont get commisions. but it will be better if i get. its a few hundred bucks extra. MY SALES IS GOOD OKAY. and be alert, just dont get caught by your boss while eating snake. and keep a lookout for the big ass-ed baboon and the niao cashiers. seriously they are pathetic. with heels and still shorter than me. its a no-no (N). how would i love it if i were to go back as a customer and then i do this to them: HI EXCUSE ME CAN YOU HELP ME GET THAT ONE? *points to a product at the TOP shelf (when i actually can reach it myself, BECAUSE IM TALL)* and then brings it to cashier and i say OOPS SORRY I CHANGED MY MIND I DONT THINK I WANT THIS ANYMORE BYE. if they bs i can just complain to the customer service (Y) IM EVIL.

i can list down 10 good reasons to why being a feminist is good/guys suck. either one will do, though i prefer the latter.

better get back to my books before my mind shuts down for the day. bye.

2010-01-23T16:34:00.001+08:00

post #236.

goodbye.

i will never forget your smile and the light in your eyes.

rest in peace.

2010-01-20T21:47:00.002+08:00

post #235.

dedicated to you.

i didnt expect it at all. i didnt know that its too late. forgive me for that.

you left. without saying anything. without giving hints. without anything at all. i was quite young when i first saw you. pardon me for only rmbing some little occations when we talked.

thr was this time i was alone in a corner staring into the empty space and praying hard that it will be soon enough to leave the place. you approached me for a talk. i know that i dont really open up well enough during conversations but you carried on. you asked me the usual stuff, which was hows school and blah. i think i gave brief replies and stopped talking, but you still carried on. you told me how was it like to be this and that. and some pointers for stuff. thank you for that small little incident. you helped a kid who was on the verge of sulking and begging my parents to bring me home.

and thr was another time when i was along in a corner as usual, drinking a cup of i forgot what's that but certainly praying hard that i will be going home damn soon. no one thr is giving me a damn and my brothers were happily throwing me alone thr and off to enjoy themselves. you talked to me again. told me about how gatherings may be quite boring. when i gave you my standard short and sweet replies, bringing moments of awkwardness. normally people will just stop at that point and do other stuff. but you were different. you continued to talk to me and that was nice of you. i enjoyed the conversations, really.

and to the more recent event. it was at your place. i was alone as usual. you brought me to billy and was amazed that i wasnt scared of him because hes too hyper and loves humans. you started talking to me about those cute little things that billy did and what billy likes. and this time i started talking more. we talked a lot more things than what we talked during the previous meetings. thank you for that. i enjoyed that evening.

thanks for everything you did for me. i really appreciate that.

once again, farewell.
rest in peace.

2010-01-19T22:37:00.002+08:00

post #234.

due to certain unfortunate circumstances, i have decided to add another new important point.

18. sleep early everyday. NO MORE LATE NIGHTS! (after 12.30 will be considered late)

tada.

god bless.

2010-01-11T19:19:00.003+08:00

post #233.

my late late new year resolutions.

1. dont talk back to my parents so much and be a good kid.
2. get nice nice A level results (most preferably AAA/A) and do my parents proud (win my brother's too)
3. PAY MORE ATTENTION DURING TUTORIALS! and the lectures, especially physics.
4. dont use the computer so much.
5. DO ALL MY HOMEWORK (Y). i decided to try to be a chao mugger.
6. dont push all the studying and blah to last minute. (Y)
7. dont mess up my room so that i have space to study and do work.
8. do well for my grade 6 theory paper so that i can say byebye to theory :D
9. drink more water. i think im dehydrating.
10. eat more healthy food. i dont want to be an unhealthy kid.
11. stalk the cats and dogs.
12. read the TIME mag.
13. stop complaining.
14. stop muttering insults under my breath at people.
15. SAVE MARNEY $
16. cut down on vulgarities (y).
17. maintain a healthy lifestyle, dude.

and the list goes on.

nice. so i shall get back to that pile of undone homework (N).

2010-01-10T00:16:00.003+08:00

post #232.

im tired. really.

its now sunday 10th january 2010. the last day of my long sweet november and december holidays. i have a good news and a bad news. the good news is im getting my allowance like really soon. the bad news is, i havent completed all my homework AND thrs a fking big pile of tests and blah blah blah to do. fk school man, seriously.

2010. that leaves it with 2 years to the holy 2012. IF the world really ends on 2012, seriously i have been spending all my life in school. like damn it. i havent done a lot of things that i wanted to do -.- and again, time is the issue.

school starts tmr. but the j2 timetable is like totally awesome. because school ends at 2pm on mondays tuesdays wednesdays fridays and 2.30pm on thursdays. this means that I CAN REACH HOME BEFORE 3PM EVERYDAY (Y) nice. now i have time for naps.

and another thing. we changed ALL our teachers except for maths. chem: gks. needless to say. GOD BLESS US. if i dont do my tutorial or whatever, INSTANT DEATH. physics: OTH: hes good i heard. gp: YKY. i think shes sweet. shes my op assessor tgt with gks. and lastly, econs: LWN. heard shes damn fierce. and spends most of her time scolding than teaching. DAI i tell you. i cant skip doing econs tutorial anymore ):

so i spent my hols going to shandong, working, and slacking my last few hols off.
1. shandong.
UBER FUN. its a good thing i went. i was like WOW. amazed. somehow changed my opinion of the people thr. it was like damn cool. and the whole trip was fun (Y) i miss the trip.
2. working.
taka is fun this year. hooray. the people thr were nice and we spent most of our time enjoying lol. but the bad thing is, the taka staff and management SUCKS like TOTALLY. damn those people D:
3. slacking my last few hols off.
srsly i should be doing my homework alr. but i havent! and today is the last day of the hols alr and i still have that BIG STACK of undone homework. with those new teachers. i think before the first week of school ends, im already dead. ah fuck it lah.

i did another good thing yo. i packed my room NEATLY already. i spent one whole day trying to sort my things nicely into files of different subjects. AND IM DAMN PROUD OF MYSELF. you know why? thats because its the first time i managed to sort everything out nicely. the times before i just have heaps and heaps of papers and books (n). i love my neatness (l)

and, i got into spca (y). actually i wanted to join ogl in the first place. but i wanted to join spca around the same time when i was about the submit the ogl thing. and then i came to a decision: i love animals more than humans. i will find more joy in taking care of those animals than the 2010 j1 batch. so therefore, i chose spca :D and the person called me on wednesday asking for my emails so she can send that orientation thing to me :D hahaha. IM HAPPY.

off to do homework. bye~

2009-10-30T01:24:00.000+08:00

post #231.

FUCK EVERYTHING RIGHT NOW.

im depressed.

2009-10-19T14:50:00.010+08:00

post #230.

something like super shocking occurred to me ytd. and i was like O.O woah. why that guy? THAT GUY LEH. omg hes short (me being almost the same height or even taller) and fat (i think i spotted at least a double chin). OH MY GOD. and he gave me a super bad bad bad bad BAD first impression. not only to me. to moi other friend as well. tsk3 this person. CROSS HIM OUT. dont let me see him randomly on streets. who knows what will happen. i bite, remember?

i decided to come out with a new to-do-list to cancel out my previous one. i think this is so much better than the old one.
~~1. OP. get over and done with it. cross it out and throw it to the back of my mind. im like prepared to get a C or worse for it -.- damn pw. i hate you like shit.~~
~~2. PACK my room. throw away A LOT of things.~~
~~3. re-read HARRY POTTER. mwahahahaha. im on the order alr, btw.~~
4. re-read A SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS. seriously i havent done a thorough reading on that book.
~~5. pack all my school stuff into PROPER FILES. i should have done that long ago, like before promos? haizxc.~~
~~6. cut down on my CURSING and SWEARING. seriously i think if i dont stop, my mouth will rot.~~
~~7. EAT. EAT. EAT. :D i want to eat a hell lot of things. yum yum yum.~~
8. LOSE WEIGHT :D this is to cancel out what i will be eating in 7. in case i gain weight and next year when i take my height and weight im scared that i will go O.O WTF and faint.
~~9. GROW TALLER. i know i cannot force myself to grow taller but i will try :D so i shall drink even more milk :D~~
~~10. get a new marshmallow cushion. my poor old panda is like HOLELY now. poor panda. me will always love you ):~~
11. get gary's album with the second edition. poor gary. i hope everything turns out well for him.
12. organise my windows media player. all the things are like jumbled up like shit. im quite pissed with it actually.
13. revive my mp3 player and dump all my songs inside :D
14. CHANGE MY BLOODY PHONE. even though its only like 4 months old. BUT I STILL HATE IT. STUPID PHONE. IT WILL TAKE ME A DAY TO LIST DOWN ALL THE THINGS THAT YOU LACK. EVEN AN OLDER MODEL OF SONY ERICSSON IS BETTER THAN YOU. DAMN IT.
15. re-read ALL MY MANGA. :D i will be THIS happy to do it i tell you.
16. stalk cats :D one of my favourite hobby.
17. stalk dogs :D im going to look for dogs around my neighbourhood and stalk them :D
18. start practicing my grade 8 exam pieces. i tell you its like thicker than the other grade exam pieces. I GROAN. damn. and i musn't fail my scales again. damn.
19. try to drink at least 1 litre of water per day. i realised i rarely drink water while at home. no wonder im falling sick. D:<
~~20. work. i hope thrs work for me in taka. TEOHUIZHI YOU BETTER DONT PANGSEH ME HALFWAY I KICK YOUR BUTTOCKS.~~
~~21. watch movies! i have no idea what movies will be up but i will try to find good ones :D~~
22. get some nice movies to watch at home so i can be couch potato. erm, correction. chair computer. because im not sitting on the couch nor am i eating chips. im just sitting on the chair and staring at the computer.
23. TRY to make my bed every morning. TRY.
24. SAVE MONEY.
25. cut moi hair. my hair is too long.
26. get some cip hours done. spca anyone?
27. urgh, do holiday homework, if there is any.
~~28. GET MOI NEOPET TO A HIGH LVL!~~
~~29. work out a way to get into my old neopets account ):~~
~~30. day dream for 5 minutes a day.~~
31. stop rebutting everything my parents say and be a good kid.
32. help out my mum with the housework. i want to be a good kid.
~~33. spend my free time NEOPETS and FACEBOOK and YOUTUBE and MANGA. see, so no time is wasted :D~~
34. buy vcds to add on to my collection.
35. will figure out more :D

i think thats it. and i better get back to my homework in case moi mum comes and murder me. hahahha. bye.

2009-10-11T17:57:00.003+08:00

post #229.

promos ended. and basically i screwed up every paper. nvr felt more depressed after a exam, not to mention a major one. fk la. i will be so fking nervous when im getting back the rest of my results. and fk it i failed gp. by 6 marks. what the hell. damn. i just hope i wont get any U grade or something. i really damn hope i can get promoted. thrs this fked up feeling in me, like telling me im gna get retained. CHOY. i dont want to get retained T.T hope my results arent too bad for physics and econs. I WANT TO GET PROMOTED. melinda rmb ah. if we get promoted. go vege and spca for a day okay. dont want to break this promise. i doubt you will get retained anyway.

i have been idling at home like since promos ended. and im addicted to PIZZA HUT. oh gawd is like so delicious. the BAKED RICE BAKED RICE BAKED RICE BAKED RICE BAKED RICE! omg im like drooling over the baked rice alr. the sausage craze YUM YUM YUM. and btw, i love to eat cheese. thats why i lurbbbbb the sausage craze yo :D

life is boring, so i conjured up a to-do-list for myself:
1. pack my room.
2. work.
3. a blogshop? maybe.
4. watch tv shows.
5. buy vcds.
6. OP D:<
7. re-read HARRY POTTER.
8. re-read A SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS
9. cut my hair.
10. eat :D
11. lose weight, so as to cancel out what i have eaten.
12. grow taller.
13. save money.
14. mug theory.
15. do some cip hours? SPCA SPCA SPCA. animals (L)
16. stalk some cats.
17. sleep at least 12h per day.
18. uh.. i will figure out more.

basically, everything is just to kill time. so, yea.
i think i should go slp. bye.
and im bored.i j

2009-09-25T02:23:00.002+08:00

post #228.

promos started.

had my first promo paper today. it was general paper. and i effing screwed it upside down like totally yo. you cant find anyone dumber than me seriously. paper one was like WTF. 12 questions which were like OMG-DAMN-DIFFICULT. i attempted one, then i realised that i dont have enough points when i was like almost done with one page. so i hastily changed to another question on media. and god damn it my points were like totally screwed up. im like not answering question at all. i already can see big big NAQs all over my paper. zzz. and paper two was another disaster too. there are two passages. the first passage was like still okay. and the second one i went WTF IS THIS already. i only spend 10minutes on my AQ and my points were like naq again and like im like fuck it already la. i think im going to get a U grade for gp. im like totally screwed already. i needa go bang the wall many many times D:<

and after school i went to superbowl with huizhi. she taught me ionic equilibria and organic chem yay! i think i can understand ionic equilibria already. and organic chem is just all memory work, which i dont quite like. but i think if i have any other questions i will just go bombard her like siao. and then she will kill me. i felt a teeny weeny bit proud of myself today. i managed to swallow those that she taught me. and i can remember some of the organic chem mechanisms! yay :D and i had fillet today. the next time i going to eat mcvalue lunch tmr im eating either mcspicy or mcwings! and mcspicy looks more tempting to me. but im like having a bit of a sore throat and flu. so i hope i wont fall sick during promos. or rather i hope i can dont fall sick at all. its terrible being sick. and when we were walking to the bus stop after we left superbowl, i realised halfway i forgot to buy strepsils. and i went AIYA damn loud in the middle of the road. and thrs two ladies in front turn around and look at me. SUPER paiseh can. and until now i havent gotten my strepsils yet. and while we were walking walking then suddenly huizhi saw a dead bird on the ground. i think its like being stepped on by someone. poor thing. and its not those typcial brown birds we see often. it got green feathers. but anyway, its a poor thing. so i picked it up with a tissue paper and moved it under a tree. i was like a bit of hesitant at first about moving it. because i didnt really dare to move it or touch it at all. but in the end, the animal lover in me wins and i moved it under a tree in case someone else steps on it. seriously i love animals more than i love humans.

i feel like going to the army. my bros make it sound like its damn fun. but its really damn fun. you get to throw grenades, fire guns and all those. OMG I ALSO WANT TO GO ARMY LAH. but i dont think i will be able to take the physical training, and YUCK, sleeping in mud. if im a guy i will be like super super super enthu about going to the army. being a soldier is good thing. you get to protect your country. and its a fun experience. and you get to be fit and build up your body. but the main thing is protecting the country. IM PATRIOTIC. NE works lah :D

and great news. i passed my grade 7 practical exam. haha. i was expecting a bad fail, of like 80+ marks out of like 150? but i passed it with 114. and im happy enough already. i can fly for this you know :D because on the day of the exam i was quite a bit freaked out. my scales was okay i thought but i failed that section by 1 MARK. irritating. the fault lies with appegios. all my appegios went terrible wrong. they were like really out. TOTALLY OUT. and i failed my aural tests hahahaha. i expected. the singing part i was like LAH LAH LAH LAH LAH. then i was thinking heck liao la dno why today cannot sing. then the rest i forgot what happened and then when he asked me a composer for an extract he played, my mind suddenly went blank and i only can remember chopin. so i stared at him and i went "HEHEHEH CHOPIN HEHEHEH" then he was like amchio and then say "all right thank you you may go". which sane person in this world will go HEHEHEH to an examiner? but apparently i got the period for the extract wrong anyway. i thought i heard pedals 8 my pieces were generally okay. just that my mazurka and bartok was like not very good. tsk3. and surprisingly i passed my sight reading. the title for the sight reading piece was A SUNNY DAY. i played it like A FUNERAL MARCH. but anyway, i passed the exam already so im in GRADE 8 NOW :D thanks mr examiner i love you so so so much for passing me :D im learning chopin's nocturne op 9 no 2 now. and it aint easy at all D:<

i think i forgot how to type a regular post. actually i cant be bothered to go rmb how to type a post again. and i realised i used a lot of 'and' 'anyway' etc etc. and i forgot what i wanted to post. so haha next time. bye :D

2009-06-09T18:19:00.002+08:00

post #227.

its been long since i last blogged. and its already the june holidays yay. thrs isnt a need to go to school for an entire month. its super super super pleasing to have a month's worth of holidays. and i really really really dread school now serious. waking up at 6am every day and dragging myself to the school is really annoying. and school ends really late. its not like secondary school whr school ends at 2.30 on the dot everytime. jc is like URGH ends at different times of the day. sometimes even until 5.30pm. eh hello do we look like we have unlimited energy? besides that we still have enormous piles of hw and tests waiting for us to do. wth? i really really hate school, especially a school that really suck. i miss nanhua. seriously why cant nanhua have ip program like rv. so i can continue to stay in nanhua for another two years. i miss nanhua like god damn much la. i can hug it to pieces if im big enough really. now when i see nanhuarians on the mrt i will be like be so jealous. i miss wearing my nanhua uniform and be in my bloody plaits. i miss 41 clementi ave 1.

im looking forward to sunday. 40208 outing :D

and i dno why im dreading my life so god damn much now. and i guess its that i still dont like the way my life is right now. is this really what i want? studying studying studying for things that i probably dont even need when i work in the society. sometimes i really regretted about my choice of going to a jc. i should have gone poly serious. at least life wouldnt be as stressed as it is right now. irritating. moe should change the jc system and make our lives better. damn the school because thrs block tests on the last week of the holidays. argh. kill me.

damn i feel like drinking milk again.

and i have been watching boys over flowers recently hahaa. its nice i must say. im so addicted to it like omg. its been long since i have been addicted to a korean show. the last one was goong and it was ages ago. bong must be happy to see me get addicted to a korean show. haha. and last last wednesday thr were korean exchange students in our school lol. seriously they are really very fair. not like us singaporeans who are more tanned than them. the korean guys are really damn fair too. but being tanned is better. looks more healthy, in my opinion. being too fair is like uhmm look quite sickly? lol. and that day was the day when my hand almost broke. beacuse i had duty in sizzling ice. huizhi was happily spreading garlic spread over the breads. and a whole lot of korean students came to buy ice cream. and seriously my hand gna break like the stupid ice cream so tough cannot dig them out then i keep using my strenght until i wanna die like that lol. but okay la, train my muscles lol. i havent been traning them for so long alr. i think the previous time was in sec2 haha. that time i was obsessed with muscles lol. and now they are so flabby now. see im fat. FAT. dont say im aneroxic or whatever again. IM NOT. i eat super lot and im fat. just that i hide my fats too well that you ppl cant see whr it is. IM FAT OK.

anad my brother has just graduated from btmc today. haha. its cool being an army guy serious. they get to throw grenades and have rifles. all those things that i wanna do so much can. and they can get to do it real life. me leh? play cs or l4d then i can shoot people or zombies. damn lol. if i were a guy i would really be so enthu for ns and i think i will go on to be a officer or smth to serve the nation. i love singapore :D but the prob is. training for ns is super tough and they will end up stinking like shit everytime after training. all sticky and sweaty. and i CANNOT stand that. when im in school i sweat a bit i wanna cry alr cant imagine myself in army when im sticky and sweaty all over lol. i think i have to bathe at least 10 times a day if i go army hahaha. and my brother when he just get home he was trying to get me to smell his helmet. like HELL NO. i run, of course haha. stinky shit. i can smell him like 10m away. and his army equipment. lying in the balcony under the sun. omg i can smell them like FROM ANOTHER END OF THE HOUSE. maybe my house is small but i think thrs at least 7m away can. i can smell them. stinky shit URGH. and now i really understand why nigahiga wanna post a vid on youtube ranting on stink people. ryan, i can totally understand why now.

ah and i have been reading harry potter again. im so so so so SO excited for the half blood prince movie you know you know you know. hahahaha. JULY. its coming soon :D :D :D LOVEEEEE HARRY POTTER SO MUCH YOU KNOW. ITS LIKE OMG I WANNA STUDY IN HOGWARTS TOO. and im like super obsessed with that AVADA KEDAVRA curse lol. even though its a forbidden curse and it kills people, i still like it i dno why hahahaa. its really so genius of jkrowling to invent harry potter. hahahahahaha. okay im mad.

and another thing is, gary's album will be out really soon! and the name is super cute can. its another 'super' series. its called SUPERMARKET hahahahaha. so cute right. and i've alr heard one of the songs alr. its called mr lonely. ITS NICE NICE NICE NICE NICE! but the prob is the key is super high hahaha. i love it when gary sings high notes you know :D he can really showcase his vocal range so well. im waiting! SUPERMARKET :D

my piano exam is coming soon. I SHALL PROMISE MYSELF THAT I WILL START PRACTICING THE PIANO AT LEAST 2H EACH DAY SO I CAN GET AT LEAST A MERIT FOR MY EXAM. grade 7 aint no joke eh. i dont want to fail dammit. I WANT TO PASS MY EXAM. seriously. i hope i can dont screw my oral and sight reading. PLEASE EXAMINER BE NICE TO ME OKAY I WILL GET NERVOUS SO EASILY GIVE ME EASY SCALES AND ORAL AND SIGHT READING OKAYYYY. DONT MAKE ME NERVOUS BECAUSE ONCE I PANIC I REALLY WILL SCREW EVERYTHING AND OMG I CANT IMAGINE ALR. EXAMINER BE NICE TO ME OKAY OKAY OKAY.

and i realised. i cant cant cant cant cant stand you. why are you so fucked up huh. fucked up in this and fucked up in that. cry over the dumbest thing. and you are so bloody gay too. think you are so fking great huh. nahbei go bang into a wall la. thr are really some days when i see you i hope i can have a machine gun and shoot you until all your intestines and brain juice all spurt out and i dont really care. URGH. go bang into the wall la go. get a life la dude. stop being so fucked up. gosh i dont like youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu D:

teohuizhi rmb our date on friday. please go pray that my temper isnt rising when you attempt to wake me up that day. and i want cake.

and bong, if you ever see this, congratulations on your entry to nafa. hahaha THANK ME I TAUGHT YOU THEORY. :D go slap daltonbitch go.

and im tired already. i shall go take a 3h nap hahazxczxczxc. i realised this post is just for me to vent all my shit in case i go mad and start hacking people. lol. byezxczxc

2009-04-18T22:37:00.002+08:00

post #226.

i cant believe how time flies. its already saturday night. WHERE THE HELL HAD MY SWEET SATURDAY GONE TO? oh nozxc i have tons of homework lay rotting in my bag untouched and thrs chem bond test on mon and maths lecture test on thurs. how screwed :/ screw the schools. i would really like to know which clever guy eng eng bo taichi invented school and homework and test and exams urghh. making everybody's life so miserable.

friday is a particularly screwed day. i screwed my physics test. fk it to hell serious. and the chem test. i totally had no idea what the fk i was doing. i din read the questions carefully and then its like i redo it twice and i realised that i forgot to use the values down thr. nahbei. im going to get one big fat zero for my chem prac assignment. screw the shit out of me please. fucking screwed school life. why the hell did i choose jc? i should have chosen poly and i will be still happily enjoying the shit out of me right now. see im so pissed that i spelt f-u-c-k out. FUCK. screw the world serious. im trying hard to work hard and then i get all these troubles. mental block. bloody lectures which made me catch zero balls and i have no idea what are all the lecturers talking about. damn damn damn damn damn. i shall bury myself in books serious. shall not eat slp talk bathe tv computer. just study 24/7. but i bet it wont make me smarter anyway. all these rubbish. urghhh i hate school. i have this bloody big fear that i will get retained at the end of thies year because i have been screwing all my tests and everything. fuck it la. arghhh. i feel like screaming at the top of my lungs right now but i know my dad will skin me alive. so i shall just shut up. maybe i should go emo in a corner of my room and start cutting my wrists again. look at my blood flow. zzz. i really feel fucking screwed. FML. screw this world up down left right and right left down up. ARGH.

i went to the dentist ytd. the clever doctor knew that i have not been putting my rubber bands. and she said the effect wont come if i dont put my rubber bands. i knoww~ but i keep eating them and it keeps coming off D: then i went might as well dont put them. haha. but now. this is more horrible. i have new rubber bands. its like THICKER. and i cant open my mouth at all. maybe can la. just like 4cm and thats the maximum. i cant put the spoon into my mouth. i cant eat properly because the rubber bands are like hurting my teeth so much. seriously i hope that my next dental appointment will come soon. i dont want to put anymore rubber bands. and a rubber band snapped inside my mouth just now. its horrible. PAIN. the england bands were not painful. this japan band went PIAK then i AH SHIT. horrible vegetable. it are causing me so much pain that now i is unable to talk properly. look at the grammar.

and i cant understand. what the hell are you fking bitches doing. you fking bitches dont have a life serious. i dont know how why you can live on like this? with a mask over your face? well i admit everyone has a mask over them but their masks are not like you fking bitches. bitches are meant to be bitches. no life fking bitches, get the hell out of my life right now. get a life mann.

and during gp the tutor showed the class this video. how they actually slaughter the animals. i feel guilty for eating meat. poor animals. to those fucking bastards who killed them: they didnt offend you in anyway. why cant you just treat them nicely huh. they can feel pain too. what if you are the one being hung upside down and have some other people to come and slit your throats? why must you use a metal rod to hit them? why are you throwing them around? you fucking bastards. they are alive. they can feel pain. they scream when they are in pain too. it really hurts me to see these poor animals. i shall try to not touch meat for two weeks. i want to mourn for these poor things. but im still going to eat fish anyway. i din see how they are killed. so lets just assume that the fishes died peacefully. i cant go totally vegetarian. i need to live on meat. the energy is needed. damn i feel guilty again.

and my brother is off to tekong last sat. hes a nsman now. soldier. protect the country. yeah. somehow i think it is so cool to be a nsman. i also want to protect the country leh :/ erm, mentally. i cmi physically. im too weak. im those type you give me a punch i will lie on the floor flat and out. haha. im THAT weak. but i have no idea why im fat too. zzz. can someone kindly allow me to donate all my fats to him/her? and i miss my brother.

ok i spent 90% of my time emoing in this post. i shall shut up and go sleep now. bye.

2009-03-23T21:30:00.002+08:00

post #225.

school started, again.

i just want to rant and complain everthing on the world about school. seriously if you can rewind the time and give me back my holidays or my sec4 life, i will not complain another word. i will enjoy every minute, every second, every milisecond, every gigasecond of it i swear. in other words, i miss nanhua, and i still cannot get used to jj.

i realised that my post-olvls to-do-list was like completed a quarter. i only did like 2-3 things on it when i wrote like tons on the list. what the hell have i been doing for my holidays? damn. just a couple of months back i will be complaining about the boredom. and now, im complaining about school. econs is so cool, because they know that HUMAN WANTS ARE ALWAYS UNSATISFIED. we, greedy humans, just hope that we can own every single shit in this world. but we cant, thats the point, so we must learn how to adapt and be satisfied with what we have now. im trying to be satisfied but somehow, maybe a wrong decision is enough to make me regret my ass off my entire life. and i dont know whether i should be regretting now or what. a poly or a jc, thats what i have been thinking for the whole holidays. and of course, in the end, i chose jc because i wanna make my way into the university and get into business. i want to own my own business and do accoutancy. i have unfulfilled tasks in my life that i want to complete. if not, why the hell am i here in the world. but even if i chose a jc, its like, the system turns me off. lectures and lessons until 5.30. hello, who the hell will have the fullest attention and energy at the end of the day, in addition we have piles and piles and PILES of homework and tests and every shit. damn.

maybe i shall stop complaining and get on with my life dude. what ak said was right. i am not doing anything about my life now even though it sucks the hell out of me. im stuck in this bloody situation, and i ought to make the best out of it instead of complaing the heaven and earth about my miserable life. ME.DONT.LIKE.MY.LIFE.RIGHT.NOW. okay i think i shall stop complaining, for now. i dont want a second regret for my school life. i hope i can do well for alvls and get a super score which can let me get into business accountancy in nus ntu or smu.

i feel the serious need to study OUT of my house. i think i will start studying in school or at superbowl. i cant study AT ALL in my house because i will sleep eat toilet computer stone stare tv daydream and every shit. i hope i can have enough motivation and self-discipline to allow me to study at home without any distractions. and and and, i shall remember what mrsfong said: SELF DESCIPLINE! if i dont have that i can put my hands up in the air and stone for 30minutes lol. i miss her punishments.

okay its time to do maths. i love maths :D i want a guarantee A for maths on my alvl results slip. and of course for my chemistry and physics too. and not forgetting my pw gp and econs. i want 6As! yay. k bye.

listen to gary :D

2009-03-17T00:01:00.002+08:00

post #224.

finally a break from school.

jc life is super hectic. the one week holiday is completely NOT enough at all for everything! i have tutorials tests and so many other things to do. im going crazy seriously. i can get stunned at every single maths physics chem question. that is really bad. it isnt a good sign. im damn scared that i will kena retained this year la. NO NO NO. i must work towards my goal of getting my 6As on my alvl report slip. business accountancy course in nus ntu smu is hard to get in okay. you need all As. damn. i should have gone poly seriously. get my accountancy dip straight and go to the uni chiong chiong chiong yay finish. i want to be a no life mugger and workaholic yay.

thursday was the so called official last day of school. basically slacked through the whole day. and i screwed my phy and chem tests. i can see a big big fat fat ZERO alr. damn. and maybe i can getg a negative score for chem lol. i screwed it like TOTALLY. damn. i cant imagine being so stupid. i dont read questions properly i guess. fe3+ to fe2+ my foot. damn damn damn. im so dumb. but anyway, thrs rono camp after school. and dear me, only three people from my class attended that camp and HOLY COW, 80+ plus turned up for rono camp while 200+ turned up for bannister camp haha. nice one.

friday was sports day. lol i was still saying AIYA RONO LAST ONE LA. lol in the end we turned out to be the second lol. bikila is still the best dno why haha. bikila has chained the champ for years! haha. but my class ponned the whole of the sports meet lol. we went to the benches outside the squash court to slack our asses off lol. and we played truth or dare. i realised that my class people has a lot of things to say lol. i have nothing to say. thrs nothing for me to say anyway. i seriously wonder if im born into the wrong body, or its just me having 2 brothers made me what i am now lol. lol nvm, this is not in the syllabus of alvls haha. and and and I WENT BACK TO NANHUA! with huizhi jerome and benjamin lol. oh my oh my oh my i finally ate my fave lajiaoyu! yay. i ate 2 haha. fat. but for lajiaoyu its ok. and jj pe program is super tough so i can lose the weight damn fast haha. and i bought chocolates for every teacher! missed them like crazy. i really miss nanhua 402 and all the teachers. i kept saying jj sucks to everyone haha. ok la. jj is not that bad. just that in comparison with nanhua, jj is really like shit. nanhua ftw! yay. and i din know so many people will be going back to nanhua la. actually by the time we all went back, its just us. and then more and more people came. the whole nanhua was crowded with people, esp nj ac people seriously! so many clever people in nanhua lol. i feel stupid D: lol serves me right for studying last minute. damn. shall not do the same for alvls! i must be a chao chao chao mugger. mug until everyone scolds me chao mugger haha.

and today was marley and me with sarah. lol the show is sweet and nice overall but, they should focus more on marley. and i realised they keep changing marley lol. marley is super cute! and when marley dies right, i was like holding back my tears D: marley rest in peace ok! me loves you! and it makes me think of xiaohua again. xiaohua darling. me will nvr forget you and your lift trips with me. *sobs* rip baby.

and i would like to complain that, jj eclub organising skills have problems. big problems. they dont give us the details of everything and then they will just like tell us everything last minute. and the training on thurs i dont even know the time! even if the training is nt under the exco, they should roughly give us a time first, so we can arrange our schedules! damn. and the camp, they should give us the details also. ahh im a bit pissed. i hope the next time its nt like this anymore D:<

i think i shall continue with my chem alr. i can hear the sweet baby calling me. byee~

2009-02-16T18:29:00.002+08:00

post #223.

i seriously hate long time tables and schools ending later than 2.30pm.

09S16, my new class. thrs only like 24 people inside. as compared to the lovely magic number 41 in 40208, nanhua, its like almost half the number of people inside. and thrs only like 10 girls in the class. oh no. 14 boys. its my first time being in a class with a larger number of boys than girls. i like to be in a more feminine class, i should say. and i've gotten my new timetable. its like so wtf hell-to-the-rest-of-my-life type timetable. monday sch ends at 5pm. tuesdays are even worse, 5.30pm. wednesdays are a little bit sexy, only ending at 2pm. thursdays are at 4.30pm whereas fridays are the most lovable days, ending at 1pm! its my first time in a school whr fridays have the early dismissals, not wednesdays. am nt used to it.

oh and i would like to mention, i am the new class treasurer! yay. i like to deal with money hoho. feels so great to be dealing with money. i think my ambition is to be a loan shark haha. i've already collected like $65 + $52.80 today, and thats like $112.80. haha. im super efficient can :D but i think its going to be a good chance for me lar. training up for accountancy in university and when im working in the society the next time yo!

ah, out for piano lessonzxc. i have not been practicing for weeks already so i think im already feeling the pain my teacher will drill into mezxc. be back.

backozxc.

din die too much today yay! at least i could play my first piece. i got practice once ok! i must start drilling my scales and pieces alr! exams are on july/august, whichever comes first. I MUST GET AT LEAST A MERIT THIS TIME! stun the sexy examiner with my sexy music! hohoho.

jc maths is like so tough la! h2 maths-.-but i like maths leh :D haha. solving a question makes me happy :D hoho. but right now is like im stuck on this sexy question for like god damn long. im not happy at all now. this progression is like too slow! and my brain cannot function properly leh! i feel so demoralised now D:

nvm i think its time to slp alr. i need my brain to function properly tmr. thrs many important lectures and tutorials tmr! goodbye.

2009-02-14T17:42:00.004+08:00

post #222.

school started. and it was like HELL. seriously, during the hols, i was always complaining about the boreness i felt. and when school actually started i was like i miss my hoidays mannzxc. the first two days of school was BORING. SUPER BORING. all we had to do was to sit in the hallzxc and listen to TALKS. and then i was like AHHHH. then my butt keep having cramps and it was like as if its going to break. and then the third day, lecture starts. its all the way until the following week wednesday. so we have a whole week full of lectures. and the second day of lecture alr sent us doing homework like crazy at home already. siao siao siao. jc life. i want to die. i should have gone poly la. somehow or someway, i regretted my choice of choosing a jc over a poly.

and on thursday-saturday, 12th-14th feb, theres our JJ ORIENTATION CAMP! it was a quite fun camp overall. the first day was ice-breaking time because the previous day we got sorted into our different classes according to our subject combinations. im separated from huizhi and weiru alr D: and then there was water games too. and we cant bathe after the games -.- i almost weny crazy when i had to walk around in our drenched clothings. irritating. and then thrs night walk too. and then i was like talking in the hall about the ghost stories of jj. lol. theres so many. lt5 was built on a cemetery? science block toilet haunted? hand dryer was turned on when the switch was closed and there was no one around. and the other ogls were saying about the netball court and squash courts too. wow. the night walk was cool lol. and we had to guess who killed the werewolf o.o lol. but we had no idea at all so we copied other ogs answer. and WE GOT THE CORRECT ONE! ahhahaa. and then the next day was mass dance in the morning. and theres a MCFLY SONG- 5 COLOURS IN HER HAIR. huizhi was THAT high i tell you. when i told her my brother said that there will be a mcfly song, she alr dno high until what alr. and when we was learning the mass dance, she went crazy :/ and then in the afternoon before and after lunch we had water games too. and when we ended our part 1 water games, we were like cheering hell damn loud. then in the nearby HDB block, an auntie was like cursing and swearing at us for being loud. she was like scolding scolding scolding lol its super funny. we were like all looking at her and laughing. and then mr simon leow was like screaming for another cheer and wanting us to shout as loud as possible. and then we shouted like theres no tmr. and we heard ECHOES! and then the auntie went scolding scolding scolding again then in the end went back inside her house. bobian what. she 1 person versus so many of us. and then after that when we were dismissed, mr simon leow said: 'now is lunch time ah, dun be noisy. dun disturb the people. lunch time liao dun make so much noise' it was like LOL! the minute before he was like telling us to shout and cheer to guailan that auntie lol. fun fun fun. and after lunch we went back to the water games and then we were like all soaked again. i kena-ed sexy sexy sexy sunburnts. but was fun though :D then FINALLY HAD THE CHANCE TO BATHE. yay bathe liao sit down eat dinner play CLING CLING then went to the grandstand a while then went inside the hall. JJ NIGHT! everyone was like damn high. screams and shouts were everywhere. but its super hot. i was like going to explode liao. and i bathed for nothing -.- so in the end after everything ends, i have to bathe again. cannot tahan la, my whole body sticky and sweaty. and then the third day was waking up in the morning, carried some tables from the hall back to the classrooms and then we went inside a classroom and had our class gathering thr. we were playing the e-web and CLING CLING. quite fun sia. then went back inside the hall to emo. then zao home alr. jj oc was fun :D but all the poor ogls were so poor thing. they keep kena pumping position. esp andy. he was like kena pumping because our og was like dispersed after dinner on the first day then mr simon leow came and ask why our og mates are everywhere. poor andy. and eve too. she lost her voice because she had to shout cheers and teach mass dance. og34 is a sexy og and sexy class! my class is so international. there are indo-chinese, half-jap and vietnamese. i felt happy because there wasnt you-know-what :D yay.

and thrs the new time table. MONDAY-WEDNESDAY. dont bother to even think about going home early. everythine like ends at least 5 or 5.30. super bloody hell. ME DONT LIKE CLASSES OR SCHOOL ENDING LATE! D:

such a feelin's coming over me, i so feel like sleeping because i dont have a decent slp in days. goodbye!

2009-01-31T23:42:00.002+08:00

post #221.

another random quiz on facebook tagged by simin/klinsen!

THE 25 RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ROUHUI.

1. i love comics and apparently i spend most of my time reading it non-stop everywhere.

2. i love to sleep a lot, and when someone wakes me up against my own will i make sure i blast their head off.

3. i hated it when someone disturbs me when im practicing the piano.

4. i pms every day, every minute, every second.

5. i like to stone :D

6. i am posted in jjc.

7. i just realised that i dont know how the hell to go to jjc.

8. i love harry potter books :D

9. i hate to step out of my house.

10. i dont like taking photographs.

11. im super lazy.

12. i hate shopping and i dont see the fun in havivng to walk all over the stupid bloody irritating mall just to take a look. i think its super tiring and i will feel like blasting the whole shopping centre up.

13. im addicted to minesweeper currently and the statistics holding now is 16 wins out of 983 games.

14. im watching THE X FAMILY now. okay i know im so bloody lag.

15. i like to eat a lot of things and i am growing fatter and fatter.

16. i am thinking of things to write.

17. i feel hungry again.

18. i have a great dislike for guys/gays/whatever you call them.

19. i like animals.

20. i kissed a dog just now.

21. i miss xiaohua.

22. i love money.

23. i hate go to out in big groups and i prefer to go out in twos.

24. i dont like reunion dinners.

25. i think i have no life.

yay done.

i think i shall go back to my show already. hoho. but thrs still a lot more to watch dammit. and schs starting soon on monday D:

2009-01-28T01:41:00.005+08:00

post #220.

hello happy chinese new year.

AH IM SO PISSED OFF. I WANT MORE ANGBAO MONEY! this year is really pathetic sia nahbei. i collected like omfg so little money): and ITS STILL ALL RM ALSO. i want to cry la. I NEED MONEY again!

its 1.43am in the morning nowzxc and im bloody hell BORED THE HELL OUT OF MY ASS again. and therefore i decided to do this! yay finally something to do :D

from TEOHUIZHI.

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
我不会唱歌-罗志祥 [omg like bloody hell?]

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
爱你-cyndi [erm? seriously i like tons of people lar so theres no point.]

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
because of you-kelly clarkson [precisely! BECAUSE OF YOUUU WHY I AM GROWING FATTER~]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
看我72变-蔡依林 [life is full of changes hmmm.]

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
without you-mariah carey [without you theres many things i can do and cant do. it depends really.]

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
起床歌-曹格 [hahaha. i think im some idiot who just woke up haha. a bit of some wierdness here and there hoho]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
刮目相看-曹格 [seriously my parents really did a lot of things which made me look at them in a different light :D mum, dad i love youuuu]

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
clumsy-fergie [haha. bit true la hoho. im super clumsy lala.]

WHAT IS 2+2?
快乐崇拜-潘伟伯/张韶函 [no link at all-.-]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
造飞机-唐禹哲 [i think its more of 放飞机-.-]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
专属天使-TANK [hahaha. but i like a lot peoplezxczxc hoho.]

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
飘逸-周杰伦 [hahaha. i think it meant chiong?]

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
孙悟空-五月天 [HAHAHA YES! NICE ONE.]

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
when you believe-mariah carey/whitney houston [trust is important dudes!]

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
stay-howl [erm stay at home? BUT I DONT GO OUT LEH?]

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
perhaps love-goong ost [i forgot who sang this. but i cant dance unless the other person wants to get hospitalised or something]

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
知足-五月天 [i think it meant that im contended with my life or smth. yea i should be.]

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
spirited away ost [OH YEAH I LOVE THIS SHOW :D i think i've alr watched it like 1000 times?]

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
一了百了-信乐团 [hahaha? tsk tsk tsk. what an answer.]

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
不想长大-SHE [no? its like i dont feel like growing up? HEYYO ITS THE REVERSE ANSWER LA DAMMITZXC!]

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
蒲公英的约定-周杰伦 [erm?]

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
3 7 20 1-曹格 [haha sometimes i did things on impulse]

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
只欠一句我爱你-唐禹哲 [i think i will burst out laughing like hell.]

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
ulibinis-vitas [huh? its a russian song and i dont understand russian haha]

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
枫-周杰伦 [erm no link? i dont think i will get married anyways hoho. and i dno what the hell is 枫]

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
夜的第七章-周杰伦 [im scared of many things haha.]

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
my memory-winter sonata ost [forgot the singers name. its like i will know it in my memory but i cant retrieve it like dumbledore or snape.]

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
every heart-inuyasha ost [i hope i can change every heart. it will be awesome after i've done that seriously.]

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
无辜-曹格 [the innocent are always the one hurt. AWWW I LIKE THIS SONG :D]

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
牛仔很忙-周杰伦 [hello i think theres a problem. IM SUPER BORED NOT SUPER BUSY DAMMIT.]

and the quiz ends :D
why the hell are there so many jay chou songs. I THOUGHT I HAVE OVER 30 GARY CHAW SONGS IN MY PHONE AND THERES ONLY LIKE 10 JAY CHOU SONGS? but gary chaw is still my fav anyways :D I LOVE GARY CHAW.

and speaking of gary chaw, I JUST REALISED THAT GARY CHAW IS MY COUSIN! and i was like over thr omfg omfg omfg GARY CHAW. den i walked further up to say HELLO! but it turned out to be one of my cousins looking super similar to gary hahaha. actually at first he was like a bit like gary but after like 2-3 years no see, he had the gary thing on him. GARY LEH! den i was like HIIII GARYY to him den he was like WANT AUTOGRAPH OR NOT? FREE ONE. haha so cute. i like gary chaw :D

these two days in malaysia was BLOODY HELL. i had nothing to do there but STONE. den i gave up, and ran to a room, and read harry potter! and I FINALLY FINISHED ALL 7 BOOKS YO! am so proud of myself yes! its a nice nice nice nice NICE book! haha. and i want to tell hermione, CAN I JOIN SPEW? i think house-elves are cute! and throughout the whole series, when i read until the part where dumbledore/snape/dobby died, i was like on the verge of sobbing already. AHHH. i like harry potter books!

i think i shall do sleep, because i needed to practise the piano tmr morning or its dead meat. happy cny dudes :D I WANT ANGBAOSZXC.

2009-01-17T13:21:00.003+08:00

post #219.

I CHOSE JJC.

its like, after hours and hours and days of thinking whether i wanted to go ahead with jc or poly, i eventually settled down to jjc. np accountancy was so tempting to me seriously and up till now i actually had the feeling that going to jc will make me regret my ass off. but then, both going to jc and poly has their pros and cons. in jc, if you screw your alvls, thats it. and maybe in the end you may have to go through poly education again, and thats another three years. so in total you wasted your two years in jc. and what if you tio retain in jc? its super stressed. its mugging everyday. and in poly, the stress is thr in all three years. although you dont have to go through alvls, its like you must do damn well and be the star performer in all your three years in poly or else its another gone case. so what if you have your diploma in poly, you still cant get into the uni because you have to be the top 5%? and i think jc will give you better chance to get into the uni. hence i chose jj. and people say jj is a slacking school. makes you slack so much that you will flunk your alvls like hell. and aj, on the other hand is a mugger school. but to me, its I DONT WANT TO REGRET AGAIN. I DONT WANT TO DISAPPOINT MYSELF AGAIN. I MUST NOT SCREW MY ALVLS AND MAKE MYSELF REGRET AND DISAPPOINTED LIKE WHAT I DID FOR OLVLS AND NOW REGRETTING MY ASS OF BECAUSE MY RESULTS ARE SO DARN LOUSY. hey so, if im like playing all the while in jc, give me a good kick and tell me to wake up, ok teohuizhi :D

harry potter is nice. i realised that. i mean reading the book itself. the movie is like will be out in july? which is another six months? i cannot wait that long la. dont want to wait another 6 months before i can like actually know what the hell is going on in half blood prince. and im on my third day on half blood prince and im actually finishing it soon, its just another like 200+ pages more. haha. im finally reading books again like, after primary six? haha.

i handed in the registration fee for my piano exam already. grade 7. and im like sort of regretting it now because i dont think i will be ready for the exam, which will be like in july or august. i dread taking piano exams and i hate the examiner staring down at you when you play your pieces or scales. urgh. and then i rmb when i was taking grade 6 exam, i screwed up all my scales, and broke off halfway every single one after the examiner tested me g-flat minor in appegios. and then i was like over thr panicking and FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK throughout the whole exam. and when he played a piece and ask me what period is the song in, i actually did not even think and i replied ROMANTIC PERIOD because THERE IS PEDALING IN THE PIECE AND IT HAS A VARIETY OF EXPRESSIONS AND EMOTIONS, which clearly shows that i memorised this off the notes my teacher gave me:/ therefore, when i left the bloody room, i burst out crying and tearing all my way from the exam centre back to school. darn. i hope i can at least get a merit this year. so for those for are living near me, if you hear any piano sounds during the mid-day and you think that the music is horrible, give me a bloody call and scream "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU PLAYING? ITS TERRIBLE AND CAN YOU PLAY SOMETHING NICER?" at me. tyvm.

i saw a nice blogskin the other day when i was like bored. so i decided to change my blogskin after this one which is like here for almost one hundred years. and when i changed the codes and i clicked the PREVIEW button, it came out shit. i have no idea why. all the things are like crammed together and the blogksin is actually on top of my posts. wtf? and then i gave up trying to make amends. and im super lazy to go through all the codes to see wtf is wrong so its back to my old dear blogskin haha. btw i've included one song. i think its super nice yo. YESTERDAY ONCE MORE by the CARPENTERS. i was listening to this song every day when i was working at taka. i think its so nice haha :D the song was sung by karen carpenter. she had such a strong and beautiful voice but she passed away due to aneroxia nervosa complications. poor thing. i like her voice and her songs. and i think its super nice in the beginning already, when she sung "when i was young, i'd listen to the radio, waiting for my favourite songs. when it played i'd sing along, it made me smile" and then the part "all my best memories, come back clearly to me, some can even make me cry; just like before, its yesterday once more". and den i will be like DAMN NICE DAMN NICE DAMN NICE. haha. im sort of aqttracted to oldies now lol. im a retard.

and i suddenly remembered something. when i was trying to make my new specs in some spec shop at jp, i was so happy during the trip then i decided to get my specs thr at the particular shop. you know why, BECAUSE THE SHOP WAS PLAYING GARY CHAW SONGS. i was so happy then hahahaha. then i told the lady THE SONG VERY NICE LEH :D then she said NICE HOR? YOU WAN THE SONG? then i told her I HAVE ALREADY. GO LISTEN TO WU2 GU1. ITS SUPER NICE. then she said OK I GO FIND THAT SONG LATER :D hahaha. its nice to meet gary fans.

i think i should go back to my harry potter already. its calling me haha :D

YESTERDAY ONCE MORE - CARPENTERS
when i was young, i'd listen to the radio
waiting for my favourite songs
when it played i'd sing along
it made me smile

those were such happy times and not so long ago
how i wondered where they've gone
but then back again just like a long lost friend
all the songs i love so well

every shalalala
every wo-o-wo-o
still shines
every shing-a-ling-a-ling
that they're starting to sing
so fine

when they get to the part
when hes breaking her heart
it can really make me cry
just like before
its yesterday once more

looking back on how it was in years gone by
and the good times that i had
makes today seem rather sad
so much has changed

it was songs of love that i would sing to then
and i'd memorise each word
those old melodies
still sound so good to me
as they melt the years away

every shalalala
every wo-o-wo-o
still shines
every shing-a-ling-a-ling
that they're starting to sing
so fine

all my best memories
come back clearly to me
some can even make me cry
just like before
its yesterday once more

2009-01-14T20:11:00.002+08:00

post #218.

got back my results on monday. wasnt too bad and it wasnt good either. its just enough to get me into JJ i think. but i aint sure whether i can get into the sch now dammit cos its like everyone are getting like single digit scores and i dont think i have the chance la. thrs so many people fighting for so little spaces in all the schools. i doubt i have the chance at all with my pathetic score. my score is like 4 As and 4 Bs. i wouldnt say its bad but its nt good either piangzxc. thrs too many Bs and im super super SUPER disappointed with my science and higher chinese. and now im regretting like shit about my results. IF i woke up earlier and start studying months ago, i will get like a single digit for my results? if i can get into JJ, i dont want to regret again. i dont want to disappoint myself again. but looking at my results, at least my worst grade was a B4. but its still no good either. HELLO SUPERBOWL, BABY IM COMING TO YOU AGAIN.

EH TEOHUIZHI YOU ON JJ OR NOT. BETTER DONT PANGSEH ME HALFWAY I KICK YOUR BUTTOCKS.

ooh i went to get my new specs today. my old one was like crooked and loose and scratched and WHATEVER. i really feel like chunking it down the rubbish chute and letting it rot down thr. hey, but no im not throwing it away. im just keeping it in case of emergency, where i cant find my new one or when im watching tv and lying down like some fat pile of shit on the sofa. my new specs is like a half-frame. im sick of frameless because its so FRAGILE. and its still black yo. i like black :D and it will be ready on saturday yay. its $150 :D my mum agreed to pay half the price for me, since i've got my pay alr. I GOT MY PAY HAHAHAHA.

im starting on harry potter and the half-blood prince alr. the order of pheonix took me damn long to finish. its such a thick book. haha. i hate the TOADFACEUMBRIDGEBITCH. feel like slapping her face until its swollen and force her to use the blood quill to write lines "I MUST NOT LOOK LIKE A TOAD AND NOT SPEAK LIKE A GAY" and make all the lines to appear on her face and until the message has SUNKEN IN.

i miss nanhua school food. when i went back on monday i was like so eager for the western stall. MY FAVOURITE RICE + CHICKEN + CHILLI FISH. and by the time i got down to thr and thrs no more chilli fish and i was WTF WTF WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. nvm i still ate anyway. i miss the school food T.T how i wish i can carry the sch canteen home.

bloody hell the jae booklet is uber thick. i dont feel like reading through it dammit.

ah im hungry. i think i will go munch on something first. goodbyezxczxc.

2009-01-11T19:40:00.002+08:00

post #217.

first post of 2009.
last post of my happy-hoho-days.

tmr is the 12th, which means results will be out tmr, and this indicates that i will most probably be going crazy. i dont want to feel disappointed by my results. i hopes its a 12 and below. i want to get into jjc. but looking back on what i've did for olvls i seriously dont think i can get that score. bloody hell my results are like kns all the while since sec1 and i think 12s a impossible score. i just hope for the best tmr and wish that everything turns out well. IM GOING TO PRAY NOW DAMMIT.

went to malaysia on sat to visit my grandmother. my grandmother is so cute i love her so much. the prob is that she is a bit of blur now and she thinks im someone else. and den she look look look at me then she realised that its ME. and the malaysia place is fking boring i tell you. thrs nothing to do at all. and i have to sit down thr staring into empty spaces and trying my very best to avoid the adults. dammit. i hate to interact with the adults D:

and im on my track on harry potter. im at the order of pheonix now hoho. and im finishing :D and i was thinking whether i should continue reading half-blood prince and then the deathly hallows or smth because when you read the book and then you watch the movie, the movie becomes not as nice you see. but then i decided that i shall continue reading. that is because if i dont read the book and wait for the movie, it will take me YEARS before i can finish everything hoho. and my next book will be my dear lovely lemony snicket series of unfortunate events haha. sadist shit.

i was reading this manga online. the story is about this boy and girl and they were in love. but the problem is the guy got heart problems and then will be unable to live past 20 years old but the both of them alr agreed with each other that they will marry each other when they are both 20, and that was when the girl alr knew that the guy will die when hes 20 but the guy dno that yet. and then after that the guy found out that he will die when hes 20 and then he starts avoiding the girl and stuff like that but in the end they still went tgt when they both like ard 17 like that i think. but the nice thing in this story is that the characters in the story all ai die mai die or die halfway never die or almost die but still hanging down thr not dead not living lol. damn cool. sadist shit me :D but the story is touching overall lar, especially at the back hoho. nice ending. i like the ending and the part about the 4-leaf clover thing when both of the are 8. its a nice manga. go read :D the title is i think buku smth de cant rmb.

and im addicted to zoo tycoon again. now i aim to clear all the missions and stuff haha. i like :D and then when you are like happy with your zoo, just save the thing and then CLEAR ALL THE FENCES SURROUNDING ALL THOSE ANIMALS/DINOSAURS/WHATEVER AND LET THEM FLY AROUND EATING ALL THE PEOPLE. it was so damn fun haha looking at all the people screaming and running around hoho. it spoils your zoo reputation on the other hand haha. and djmax is still such a nice nice nice game :D i like it. im like trying to get my max combo for everything and my lovely 100% for all the notes. but its damn hell difficult.

my daddy says i can repaint my room yay :D lol im sick of the ugly colour on my walls alr. im going to change it to GREEN or smth haha. tell me what colour is nice. i wanted black lol but its like fking ugly so forget it then. TRUST ME IM GOING TO FEED MY BROTHER WITH PAINT IF HE COMES KAHCHIAU ME AGAIN. he was like telling me just now "eh tmr u go sch ah" den i said "yar have to what" and then he said "ohhh. DO WHAT HUH" and then i went "FUCK YOU LA" he knows that im like collecting my results tmr and he keeps reminding me that since wednesday dammit. and speaking of results IM LIKE FKING STRESSED AGAIN.

and i haven get my pay. WTF IS MY BOSS DOING YO? i want my payyyyyyyy! i need money and im like so broke now dammit.

i want to watch ponyo ponyo ponyo. my favourite hayao-created movies. I WANT TO WATCH IT.

oh shit i forgot to change my blogksin. wtf nvm shall do it when i rmb it next time.

my dear pcyuncle. wtf are you doing. I WANT TO KICK YOU DOWN THE STAIRS ALREADY LA. damn.

thrs piano at 11am tmr. and 2pm in sch to collect the results. and then its back home. i hope tmr will be a good day. goodbye.

2008-12-31T23:21:00.002+08:00

post #216.

last post of 2008.

i can still rmb at the beginning of the year i was grumbling shitzxc away about 2008 like "knn i dowan be sec4. i dowan to take olvls. i dowan to go to sch. i dowan to study. i dowan to climb six floors. i dowan this i dowan that." and thinking of that now i feel the same about 2009 now. just that some contents are changed haha. now its "knn i rather i be sec4 now. i dowan to take my olvl results. i rather go through the process of preparing for olvls again in 2008. i rather climb six floors. i rather this i rather that." lol fun.

many things happened within a year. its so many that i cannot take it. sometimes i really feel like running away from home and avoiding all those rubbish happening in every corner of my life. reflecting on how i had spent 2008, its a mixture of regrets and stuff. regrets like NOT STUDYING UNTIL LAST MINUTE AND SCREWING MY OLVLS LIKE SHIT is definitely on the top of the list. stuff like mugging and playing at the same time at superbowl with bong huizhi is also one of the things i certainly most enjoyed. and in school, i really enjoyed my corner seat with simin. although we spend most of our time bickering and quarrelling with each other, its still quite fun actually. i miss our bingo games. i miss our topics on mangas and criticising teachers (although its me most of the time). and i most certainly miss the canteen food. MY FAVOURITE RICE + 80CENT CHICKEN + CHILLI FISH at the western stall. lol. my standard meal per day in school. and bloody hell it feels damn good to be in sec4 because theres many privileges for sec4s like cutting queues/taking lift without permission (its so god damn tiring to climb 6 floors everyday)/not go cca/enjoy the top floor breeze/make a hell lot of noise in the classroom and no one cares because the staff room is at the second floor :D/nice vision of the field outside the school (although its filled with construction now dammit)/and blahhh. im going to miss my sec4 life. secondary school life is fun :D and i really regretted not studying because i
screwed my olvls dammit.

and i've been to work, at takashimaya gift bazaar's talking hall. its god damn fun thr. seriously on weekdays there aint many customers walking around and all the promoters will gather around and talk talk talk talk talk NON STOP hahahahaha. but in the end we kena complained by the bloody cashiers in front. seriously they dont have the fking right to complain us to our bosses for us talking BECAUSE THEY ARE PLAYING AMONG THEMSELVES ANYWAY. and the uber cool thing about thr is that there are 4 nhrians working thr! hahha. bong guanzhi anlin me :D small nh party at taka :D but the bloody thing about taka is that there are many bloody stupid fked up customers who fking think that they are so fking rich to shop in orchard road. hello, its a fking sale going on in taka so i dun see any richness in you fking bitches. and we promoters aint your dogs you fking assholes. seriously i dont care to earn those fking cents of your fking money. bastard sia. okay, but taka is really fun. im gg to miss the daily 10am majulah singapura takashimaya song and the closing song. it makes me fall asleep :D and im gg to miss the nice promoters thr :D its been etched into my memory.

and superbowl. the place whr i've spend most of my time at besides home and school. one of my favourite places in 2008 but its fking cold thr lol. i love it anyway. trust me, i will be back!

haha thats about all. 2008 has certainly been one of my favourite years out of my 16 years lol.
and i know that im gg to miss nh too. it took up one quarter of my life :D hahaha. 2008 i miss you darling.

bye 2008.

and hello 2009 :D

2008-11-10T21:48:00.000+08:00

post #215.

this post is dedicated to MISS TEOHUIZHI.

SORRY LA TEOHUIZHI IM REALLY SORRY.

THIS IS MY MOST SINCERE APOLOGIES FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.

PLEASE DONT BE ANGRY WITH ME ANYMORE.

2008-11-05T21:51:00.000+08:00

post #214.

im halfway through the ordeal of olvls.

hah im back, after like a month plus?
seriously i screwed olvls like fk.
i never felt so dead before omfg.

english:
it was horrible.
i stared at the qns paper for 30 minutes without doing anything can you believe this?
and in the end i almsot couldnt finish my p1.
i finished, eventually, but it was all crap.
and i din have the time to check.
bastards.
and p2, MAU?
cats are cute but MAU?
bloody hell i screwed eng like shit.

chinese:
it was ok.
but not that good.
p1 was like, o.o
i screwed the letter part.
and the second part was like about what money couldnt buy.
i wrote like erm, i was a workaholic and blah blah.
gl my mum for calling me to go back for dinner when im doing my work.
den my bro called and niao-ed me cos i forgot it was my mums birthday
den i went T_T and chionged home to pei my family.
all those crap.
i think it cant fetch a good result i think.
i want my prelim chinese p1 results boohoohoo.
I WANT AN A1 FOR CHINESE!

amaths:
p1 was easy.
i had 3 marks deducted so far, but i dno if i had any other silly mistakes which i din notice.
p2 was a bit more difficult.
i left 3 marks blank and had no time to check through my other answers.
so i just hope that i wasnt so careless.
bahh D:
i hope its an a1 :D

emaths:
seriously i dno why its like more difficult than amaths?
thats what i think la but i dno leh.
p1 was like 12 marks gone i think.
and p2 was like BAHH i should go bang the wall.
i hope at least i can get a2 but i rather an a1.
so lets just hope for a1.
and i regretted.
cos i din spend as much time on emaths like what i did for amaths.
im an amaths freak :D
but emaths a1 okay?
pls pls.

geography:
ah screwed this paper.
i was like WTF?
guailan lorms.
bastards.
damn cambridge.
i hope i can get er.. at least b4?
but i know im dreaming bahh D:

social studies:
i did sri lanka question.
the first part i spammed like 2 full pages, and the second page i spammed like 1 1/2 pages, when the second part had a larger mark weightage.
darn!
and the sbq.
seriously i nvr felt so screwed.
i din finish the last two parts.
i dno whats the bloody problem with me zzz.
screwed my both humans papers.
omg i hope that humans i can get at least b4, but IM DREAMING BIG TIME.
shitz.
I WAN AT LEAST AN B4!
*slaps myself*

chemistry:
my p2 had 7 marks deducted so far.
and i dno if i have anymore careless mistakes which is enough for me to kill myself.
and i so hate myself for the iodine part.
ACIDIFIED SILVER NITRATE REMEMBER THAT YOU BITCH?
i wrote the separation method.
omg how dumb -.-
so i have to depend on my p1 to pull me up.
LET IT BE EASY P1!

physics:
this is the screwed-est paper.
who the hell will go rmb whats the bloody size of an atom?
wtf.
and i had blanks here and there.
wahpiangz.
im dead.
it will be lucky if i can pass this paper.
sorry mr wee i cant get at least a b3 for you.
kill me if you want.
and now i have to depend on my p1 to pull me up.
I HOPE P1 WILL BE EASY AND I CAN SCORE AT LEAST 35 FOR IT.

biology:
the paper is quite easy.
but i forgot about the kidney part.
piangz i hate kidneys.
and i have stupid mistakes here and there.
bastard.
i hope its not too bad.
and i have to depend on my p1 to pull me up, AGAIN.
LET P1 BE EASY PLEASE!

and and and olvl is going to end in 8 MORE DAYS!
shut up teohuizhi i know what you are going to say.
i am going to work work work!
yay.
when i work, i have $, and when i have $, i can buy comics wahahahaha.
IM A COMIC FREAK.
and rosy said im a zhai2nv3.
thats pretty true lol.
i hate to go out.
why?
dont waste my time la.
i rather stay at home and sleep.
camp at home read comics/watch tv/sleep/daydream/blahhhs.
HOW NICE!
:D

and superbowl!
i spent so much time there, eating mac like shit, and growing fat like shit.
haha. it was pretty fun.
i met so many people thr lol.
rosy, mingmin, alvin, jeffery, siqi, keat, houyin, maggie, chiumin blahhs.
lol.
and mswassan and mrchia and mredmundng lol.
and my class people and nh mates!
haha basically the place is flooded with NANHUA PEOPLES.
hahaha.
and thanks to-
teohuizhi: damn you lar stop complaining about the place. but thanks for coming anyway and teaching me chem and crapping with me hoho. BUY ME SUBWAY CHOCOLATES!
bong: you and your socks, DAMMIT. hahaha. pei me mug and teach me chem/phy/bio/maths wadever lol thanks. and i taught you chinese also wahahaha.
rosy: hahaha cute darling you haha. thanks for pei-ing me mugg hoho. although most of the time we ended up talking crap and rubbish, and eating tidbits like hell, wahaha. it was nice! hehe and i got you a laogong. nice nice nice wahahaha.
joel: shall credit you for teaching me maths/physics/chem. you are the god. damn qiang one you lol.
boonbin: my 5 year friend. haha thanks for coming down and teaching me chem, you chem tb.
mrchia: hahaha you damn cute. everytime mark paper until fall asleep lol. thanks for teaching me mathsssss :D
mswassan: thanks for teaching me chem! hahaa. you damnnnn cuteee hahahahaa.

ahhh i should come up with a to-do-list for my days after olvls!
to-do-list:
1. go work!
2. camp in front of computer and read MANGAS!
3. watch all the shows i want to watch :D
4. play zoo tycoon/marine mania/dinosaur digs!
5. watch the coffin!
6. change my blogskin.
7. uh cant think of any.
teehee.

piangz 12.35am.
i shall go slp :D
goodbye.
8 MORE DAYS TO THE END OF MY MISERY :D

2008-09-22T22:47:00.000+08:00

post #213.

hello.
i felt bored, so i blog lol.

prelims ended.
seriously i screwed them up like shitz.
look at all my papers.
i really dno how am i going to take my olvl.
the worst scenario will be me retaking olvl or gg to ite.
and this time prelim i guess my l1r5 will be 30 again (like always)
no matter how much effort i put in to study its always the same
zzz.
im losing confidence already.
in maths also.
after that hell a maths papers i sat for.
zzz.
kill me someone.
PLEASE.
and geog.
i shall not complain cos i knew that i din study hard enough for it.
just a few glances at one topic the day before the paper is wad i did.
i seriously regretted.
lousy scores for geog.
i ought to feel ashamed.
and i feel ashamed.
and guiltly.

so
28 more days to olvls.
that is exactly 4 weeks.
im doing to spam myself with studying everyday.
and i shall leave all my rubbish thoughts behind.
huizhi im giving up lala.
me aint troubled anymore :D
gotta be straight yo!
continue to like gary chaw :D

advice to those taking piano second dip/LTCL:
DO NOT TOUCH LA CAMPANELLA.
although it sounds nice but its hell.
bong played a few pages and she felt like dying.
i played ONE BAR and i felt like dying alr.
advice to those taking piano theory grade 6 onwards:
dont be foolish.
its hell.
it may seem easy.
but the danger is lurking behind yoohoo
i shall not touch theory anymore after taking grade 6 theory D:

lala im so in love with djmax :D
hahaha
i love pressing those buttons!
nicky that ass cant find his charger D:
zhiwei that ass wun lend unless i ask from someone else who is playing with his psp at that moment D:
so i have to borrow from xinen aka rosy lol.
rosy superr cute lol.

bong is scared of leeches :D
look at her bio textbook and you will understand whyy.
super funny the way she scream at the leech hahahaha.
just a piece of paper
and ink.
whats so scary?
haha. bong super cute.
bong and her nicole.
everyone is mad about nicole.

recently hooked to these songs:
la campanella :D
jenny, unfortunately, thanks to teohuizhi
我知道我变漂亮了
nice leh.
not bad.
go listen gogogo.

it is such a pity that in this world there is no such thing as being true.
everything around is fake.
the milk incident in china.
i dare drink milk from china no more.
switch to australia brands!
products are fake, and so are humans.
even at such a young age theres so much 勾心斗角
when i was younger im just merely stupid to be betrayed again and again.
im so sick alr.
so i wun trust anyone unless its a super close relationship and the person is reliable enough.
and i so hope that im a ninja or possess a license to kill
woohoo i can kill anyone i dun like lalala.
because those i dun like are really rubbish people so theres no pity in losing them :D
okaye dun mind me im drunk cos i did too much alcohols in organic chem.

i saw this super cute rubiks cube at a food court.
$1 each, mini rubik.
although the quality sucked, but still playable.
haha super cuteeeee.
but i got a feeling of being scammed zzz.

i want to be electroplated at the anode!
so i can get slimmer haha.
bye bye fats.

zzz i feel like sleeeeping.
byee people.
till after olvl!
or unless i have the mood :D
bye blog darling.

jennyyy its killing meee

2008-08-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

post #212.

hihi im back.
first thing: lets talk about garys concert!
it was WHOOOOO!
SUPERB.
i freaking love his voice and everything!
hahahhahhaha.
how can there be someone who can sing sooooooooo godly!
HES HOLY!
and huizhi went with me.
lol.
we saw mark lee and his wife, 933 dj peifen, laiyiling
so all of them love gary.
GOOD TASTE :D
and the most cool thing is i bought gary's first album thr, which i dont have.
and den i went home, my bro gave me GARY FIRST ALBUM.
SO SWEEEET.
so i have two.
im keeeping!
memories :D

and for national day:
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE.
lol.
seriously, the 2006 ndp was the best best best BEST!
the rest all tio own by 2006 ndp liaoss :D

and just now on the newspaper,
a 3 month tiger kena whipped because it wanted to sleep den dowan take photo.
wtf.
the teeth drop and mouth bleed.
ass that person.
the next time hes gg to get whipped and his teeth will all drop and his mouth will be all bloody.
NO ONES GOING TO HELP HIM AND ONLY LAUGH AT HIM HES SUCH A BASTARD ASSHOLE. FK YOU LA GO TO HELL. ITS JUST A BABY TIGER WHAT DO YOU WANT? DONT YOU KNOW THAT BABIES NEED SLEEP? YOU ASSHOLE YOU BURN IN HELL.

micheal phelps is the next holy.
8 golds, WOW.

xiaohua passed away.
did i mention it before?
no?
nvm, i will always rmb you xiaohua.
you are the loveliest cat :D
i wont forget the times you pei me went up the lift and you went solo down the the first floor by the stairs cos you were too afraid to take the lift by yourself
and that you were waiting for me to go home from school at the staircase everyday.
i will so miss you.
so miss you.

prelims started.
taken eng/chi paper 1, emaths p2, chem p2 and ss.
darn those papers i think im gg to fail.
great my l1r5 gg to be 30 again.
no matter how much i study its always FAIL for me
so whats the point of studying now huh?
asshole.
so feel like killing myself. zzz

and i baked cookies for the first time in my life today.
it sucked.
the experience is totally HORRIBLE.
imagine all the dought sticking onto your hand and then turning all oily.
YUCK!
overall the thing came out still ok.
but i din dare to eat it though.
i was full just by looking at it.
TEOHUIZHI I MADE YOU DABIAN SHAPED COOKIES.

and macs my third home.
i have been eating mac so much recently.
now im fat D:

this song of gary is so meaningful.
everyone should listen.
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yes i can FLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

its teachers day celebration tmr.
we will be released at 12.
wheres the half day asshole school you.
zzz. now i cant go back to rulang
asshole.

next week is HOLIDAYS.
but its hell.
have to study for prelims.
i haven touched the other subjects.
zzz.
now i have to camp in front of the study table and rot.
zzz

and i will be back after olvls hopefully.
i have run out of things to say suddenly.
ah nvm.
heck.
goodbye.

2008-07-07T11:07:00.000+08:00

post #211.

congratulate me :D

I WON GARY CHAW CONCERT TICKETS FROM POKKA!

but i would like to win the 168 tickets from teens better haha.

i know i dun have the luck so nvm.

the 108tickets will do anyway :D

at least i get to go right :D

better den nothing haha.

so i shall start doing all my tys!

i've promised myself :D

and my blog also :D

wahahaha.

so erm blog and computer i will have to abandon you people :D

dun be sad.

dun miss me lololol.

goodbye :D

im going to collect the tickets later! (:

2008-07-06T00:05:00.000+08:00

post #210

CONGRATULATIONS GARY CHAW ON WINNING THE BEST MALE ARTISE!

GOGO GARY I SUPPORT YOU WAHAHAHAHA!

YEAH YOU WIN TANKKKKKKK :D

恭喜恭喜！

today was flag day for spca.
dno why so ngiaow give one tin two ppl.
its good in the sense that can slack la.
but damn weird lol.
bongs went with me to market ard rulang thr.
is really ppl mountain ppl sea.
ppl generous :D
gimme us $.
den theres this BIG and SMALL dog thr.
quarelling LOL.
damn cute lar.
i want touch :D
but i toot photos though :D

den after that went to bongs house.
i did finish my chinese wb thr :D
hooray.
den slacked off a while and laughing at sarahs chinese.
yan2 ~~jun4~~ suan1
LOL.
funnnaayyee.
SARAH WONG HAS AN UGLY DP.

and from now onwards i shall keep close to my handphone.
in case the teens/pokka ppl call me :D
gary concert tickets :D
I WANT TO GOOOO BAYBEHHHHHHHHH.
GARY IS 歌王LEH.
haha. im such an idiott D:

i shall go sleeeeeeep alr.
byeeeeeeeeeeee :D

2008-07-03T20:56:00.000+08:00

post #209.

today is my brithday!
i am 16 :D
but suddenly felt so old lol.
but i finally can watch nc16 hohoho.
no need to be so depressed over the movies i want to watch but rated at nc16.
how i wish i can be 16 years old forever :D
but then i will be some demon D:
so nono.
hahaaaaaaa :D
today overall was quite gooooood :D
nice 16th birthday lol.
except for seeing fbs cos he sucked.
he damn ass la i think he pregnant lor.
bloody fat lol.
i so mean keep scolding ppl lolol.
so i shall shut up now lol :X

thanks for wishing me happy birthday eh :D
HUIZHI:D sarah rachel weisheng yuxuan siokhiang sylvia huilan jessica yunzhen audrey yanchng deborah claudia weichong shinyi xinyi stephanie rachellee aaronchan mrsleuar jessabelle maylynn simin ziyan wanling liyin serene weichong nicky klinsen jieming damien amandayeo jingying
sry to those whom i forgot to include.
remind me eh :D

today morning at 0000hour,
i was a bit depressed because i din receive a birthday sms from TEOHUIZHI.
den the next morning when i woke up i also dont have her sms.
and was even more depressed.
den throughout the whole day in school i also dun receive her sms.
EVEN MORE DEPRESSED I GUESS.
i thought she forgot.
den after assembly,
when i reached my class
i saw this on my table.

can u guess how surprised i am?
omg omg omg.
one look i knew was from teohuizhi.
i damn damn damn damn damn surprisedddd :D
den i was like laughing to myself like an idiot lol.
i was so touched haha.

if u can read this go ahead.
if cant den its too bad :D

this is the contest thing huizhi help me make for the gary concert contest.
back view.

front view.

back view of another.

front view of another.

hahaha.
ii had a nice birthday.
hahhaa.
TEOHUIZHI THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH I LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH.
haha.
rmb my cake okaye :D
gtg lers bb :D

2008-07-01T21:27:00.000+08:00

post #208

ah i sent out all the contest forms for gary's concert alr.
hope i can win the teens de.
i wan the 168 tickets so i can sit in front and see big big gary lol.
ty thz for helping me make lol.
and btw if i win i treat u
and the jin qu jiang gary win how many i treat you how many haha.
but must split to different times lol.
i hope gary win everything lol :D
its time to recognise the efforts that he put in :D

and i realised that re ai by cyndi is so nice haha.
the song is very cute :D
and the dance also
haha. cyndi is so cute.
btw xiaogui can sing well :D

and my handphone is stupid.
i cant load songs inside D:
stupid phone and computer.
my old laggy com is better :D
but not the lagging part :X

ohya CONGRATULATIONS TEOHUIZHI U GOT UR PHONE BACK :D

a trip to the kitchen made me forget what i wanted to say
oh well nvm i dun care lololol.
goodbye.

2 more days to my birthday :D

2008-06-29T20:51:00.000+08:00

post #207.

hmms.
its the weekends.
haha.
time to slack.
but from this time when im blogging,
the weekend is about to fly away.
OH NO D:

went to macs with wanling today
doing homework apparently :D
i was supposed to meet her at 12.
and i woke up at 12 LOL.
im a pig.
i received 6 missed calls from her.
that was supposed to be my 'morning call'
somehow it became afternoon call.
lol.
i reached thr at 12.30 anyway
late for half an hour.
not too bad la huh :D
ps la wanling.
i brought my bio wb chem wb chinese and physics worksheet thr
HOORAY I FINISHED EVERYTHING.
haha.
din waste my time there hohoho.
mr wee, the physics worksheet i do until gong gong.
im so stupiddddddddddddddddddddd D:
so i guess i must pay super duper LOT of attention during physics haha.
my physics sucks for unknown reason.
maybe not.
its just that im stupid i guess.

and some shit stuff happened on wed.
super embarrassing.
i fell asleep during physics :/ sry mr wee
and then i slept until mrs leuar came in
and everyone was standing up waiting to greet her
and i was thr sleeping away
she called me i no response
simin shook me i no response
den i suddenly wake up myself
and found that everyone was looking at me and waiting for me
SUPER EMBARRASSING AH.
too tired eh D:
i slept for only 8h for mon and tues.
DEAD BEAT.

im mailing the contest forms for gary's concert thing on mon and tues!
wish me gooooood luck! haha.
hope i can win at least one ba hahaha.
i wan win the teens that pair of $168 tix haha.
more worth
in front de
can see gary more clear ahhaa.
i like gary.
AND I PROMISED.
IF I GET THE 168 TICKETS I WIL FINISH ALL MY TYS
hahaha.
i 说到做到 :D

and sat was bernard chan's birthday haha.
37 years old.
old man.
but he still look like he just turned 30 or is 20 ++
young man.
nvm HAPPY BRITHDAY.
btw he looked as if he knew ak.
haha.
both of them are eng pros

suddenly ran out of things to say
or should i say that i forgot what i want to say lol
cos im talking to huizhi LOLOLOL.
byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D

3 more days to my birthday :D

2008-06-23T20:33:00.000+08:00

post #206.

10 more days to my birthday.
i dno whether to be happy or sad though lol.
im glad that im able to watch nc16 movies alr.
but i dun wanna grow up eh :D
contradicting D:

and school had started.
the inhuman-ly school days started again.
theres common test on the fourth week.
and prelims on the week before the sep holidays.
and it drags after the holidays.
sec 4s are a bunch of people with no lives.
and so are the teachers.

btw mr wee i would like to mention to you that
the small reinforcement lessons that you conducted during the june hols
i think that i understood the stuff that you are teaching thr better in class lol.
so can you conduct more lessons like this lol.

list of undone homework:
#1. 15 sets of chemistry papers :X
#2. 5 biology worksheets (3 of which are from the march holidays)
#3. the physics workbook (i've done halfway)
#4. chinese (had to find 5 dumb compos and do the close passage thing. its so dumb. waste of time)
#5. english ( i had 3 compos left)
tada. long eh?im dead.
and tmrs the deadline for eng homework.
i shall go do my work after this post.
i will do it.
i already promised myself.
btw i cleared my table ytd so i have a clean and nice table for me to do my work.
no need to cramp on the other table alr hahaha im so proud of myself :D

and i cut out the thing thing on teens to ask huizhi help me decorate den send in to teens to win...
TICKETS TO GARY'S CONERT ON 12 JULY IN SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM!
i so want to go :D
i shall send the thing on my birthday
rub a bit of birthday luck on it :D
i shall learn from teohuizhi
if i manage to win the tickets
I PROMISE TO FINISH ALL MY TYS.
i mean it :D
i 一言既出驷马难追.
wahahaha.
i love garyyyy
nvr heard someone who can sing so welllllllll :D
and better than tank wahahhaa.

okaye i shall not crap any further already.
my homework is waiting for me.
byebyebye :D

2008-06-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

post #205.

hihi blog
im back again.
so erm my blog is dead for ard 3 months.
okaye how nice.

so erm first thing.
its the june holidays.
btw the june holidays only have about 5 more days and it ends?
i got a rubbish holiday.
almost have to go back to school every day.
what makes that a holiday.

second.
i got a laptop :D
but sadly i think its going to distract me from my work.
so i shall ban myself from using the com.
only after my work is done.
i shall promise myself.
for the sake of olvls i will do it.
i hope.
3 more months eh?
and i've stopped playing online games :D
i said bb to neopets and audi.
i shall resume after olvls :D

third.
i got tons of holiday homework
and i did few only :/
i only managed to finish all the maths, ss and geog.
im left with paper 1 of the 2 eng 2004 and 2007.
and chinese D:
and the three sciences D:
i shall go chiong my homework.
its for my own good.
just hope that i will nt be lazy anymore :D

fourth
my birthday is next month :D
lalala im turning 16 :D
hooray nc-16 movies :D
but somehow i dont want to turn 16.
i dont want to grow up D:

fifth
i had given up on comics
until after olvls.
im not going to buy anymore new comics
until after olvls.
i can do it baby :D
btw im broke too so it doesnt make any difference if i want to buy comics anyway.
i dont have the money D:

i saw gary again the other day :D
omg hes soooooooooo CUTE.
i've nvr seen anyone who can sing so well.
GARY IS MY GOD
haha.
i so want to go to his concert.
but my mum doesnt allow me to D:
gary's concert leiii.
i just hope i can get some tickets from all those magazines and newspaper contest thing thing.
ahhhh GARY :D

pictures :D

this is the sign the concert ticket the thing.

this is when he finished signing all the tickets. omg he took out his shirt. damn hot.

this is when he was leaving the place. cos he was walking and i was trying to take a photo so it turned out blurrrr. but he smiled at me :D HOW SWEET.

xiao hua. trying to go out of the lift. lol. but in the end followed me up the fifth floor and i let it out. i scared it go around peeing outside other ppls home if i allow it to go to the same floor as me. xiaohua is so cute. btw she got a new boyfriend.

two hamsters lying on top of each other. apparently they are sleeping lol. fat hamsters. i've never seen one so fat.

theres still many pictures. but im too lazy to upload them.
so i shall leave it to next time lol.
and i have to report to sch tmr for mr wee's physicssss.
i like physics but somehow i just cant score D:
i hate myself D:
goodbye.

THE LAST POST.

2008-03-23T16:00:00.000+08:00

post #204.
my last post.
congratulations.
closing ceremoney: another 10 days :D
reopening ceremony: depends on my mood.

so school had started again.
and the welcome-back presents dumped to us by the teachers
TESTS.
i nvr studied for any shit.
so be prepared to fail.
and i haven finish all of my homework anyway.
be prepared to die.
i seriously hate school.

and there was bio spa.
now i know what is a crucible.
i feel so retard.
theres a feeling of FAIL in bio spa.
sucks.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERENE CHUA.
and before that was
HAPPY BRITHDAY JESSABELLE.
and even before that was
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEE SIMIN!
lol.
lagging away :D

there is mye starting 28th april.
paper 1.
and den on 2nd may the whole bloody exam starts.
and whatever shit we are tested on are
EVERY SHIT ON SEC 3 TOPICS + HALF OF SEC 4 TOPICS.
i should burn my textbooks.

there is deathnote tonight.
I SHALL WATCH.
im still so mad and crazy over deathnote lol.
theres this deathnote craze.
kira and l.
omfg i wish i have their brains.

theres some sucky movie i watched ytd.
its not for ppl with weak heart.
BUT I HAVE STRONG HEART.
lol.
they just kill kill kill.
somehow like saw.
and theres this part its pretty disgusting.
this woman kena hung upside down.
and theres another woman lying underneath.
and den she uses a parang or something to slit open the womans flesh and let the blood drip down and she bathe in it.
supposed to keep her youthful i think.
but it doesnt work.
she looks so old.
her age supposed to be 30+?
bathing in virgin's blood to keep young?
thats rubbish.

theres another like 6 more months to olvl.
currently feeling stressed.
some other sick people have started mugging.
and i aint.
im the dumbo.

my bros gg genting tonight.
im gg to make him buy me lots of things.
but he probably wun.
lol.
if i pester him i will get killed.
i aint dumb.

for the past week the whole class was singing in front of the whole school.
haha.
luckily only sang for 3 days.
cos one was wet weather and the other was GOOD FRIDAY.
haha.

i gtg alr.
gg jp to buy some shorts.
i ran out of black shorts.
i love black :D
bb.

*note: blog closing down in 10 days.

2008-03-09T15:01:00.000+08:00

post #203.

bwahaha.
holiday week.
happy :D
but my holidays arent like holidays at all.
mon have to go back to sch.
and there is a chemistry test also.
老师不是人!
tuesday got piano.
ltr have to do theory homework zzz.
wednesday got tuition in the afternoon.
thursday got amaths remedial.
friday finally got a time to relax.
but there are so many homework.
eng: 2 compres 1 compo 1 summary
chinese: 1 compo 1 compo dagang
emaths: 2 maths worksheet
a maths: a whole chunk of amaths questions
ss: 2 ss worksheet
chem: chem worksheet
physics: spa skill 3
bio: 3 bio worksheet
see. teachers arent human D:
and when sch reopens theres emaths ss chem bio test.
ZZZ.
IM GONNA DIE.
my holidays are gone *pooooof*

and for common test it was disastrous.
and midyear starts next month.
i cant believe it is alr march liaos.
6 more months to olvl.
i hate mugging :X

and todays makeup tuition i think i pon le lar.
study tmr chem redox test.
i go tuition another time.
ltr call and tell zzz.

its the holidays and i cant even play D:
nvm i shall get my entertainment in youtube.

this is the second last post.
wahaha.
gtg bb. TEEHEE.

2008-03-02T18:07:00.000+08:00

post #202.

i saw GARY CHAW!
omfg hes like so cute :D
den he sang so nice :D
wahaha.
better then TANK.
haha.
and den i got his gai3ban3.
and den went to get his autograph.
woohoo.
shook hand :D
hahaha.
he look so cute lar :D
wahahhaa.
whooo thanks weichong for pei-ing me go :D

okaye.
common test was so screwed up.
bleah.
i should stab myself.
*stab stab stab*
im gg to be so bloody dead.
its either my mum kills me or i kill myself
in which both ways i also must die.
shit common test.

now i worry about olvl so bloody hell much.
and i am going to get mental break down
and i am going to kill myself.
gahh

oh audi.
i lvled.
hooray.
this time its good.
i only took the license three times
and den i passed it alr.
haha.
IM A LVL 21 AMATEUR NOW.
heheh.

i installed my braces.
and it came with another 3 ulcers.
how nice of the braces.

friday was roadrun.
I GOT TOP 10 SIA.
as in counting from the bottom.
cos i walked all the way.
haha.
and is walk dao so slow.
i damn noob.

i just realised that this post is so random -.-
and i shant care
cos i cant think of what to post alr.
and im trying to get to my target post and i shall shut my blog up and open it again when i feel like it.
and in the meanwhile i shall post rubbish inside thr.
teohuizhi must be curious.
hahaha.
gtg bb :D

2008-02-17T13:16:00.000+08:00

post #201.

its been so long since i last updated.

common tests starts tmr.
im gonna die.
i cant do english
i cant do chinese
i cant do amaths
i cant do emaths
i cant do geography
i cant do social studies
i cant do chemistry
i cant do physics
i cant do biology
i cant do everything
shit me lar.
dammit.

last week when i played audi
i trashed one world star.
we played 5 games
first game i won and den the other 4 i tio pawned badly
expected lar.
world star leh :/
wait until i become world star myself den i can trash him
and that will be like so long.

yepp 3 more posts before i shall lock my blog up and opening it again when i happy.
maybe i shall change the url cos the current one is like so dumb.
yar its dumb i noe.

chinese new year was as usual.
i just hate reunions.
but i love the angbaos.
yay im rich :D
but i cant use the money though.
and i wun use it anyway.
lets save for the rainy days!

o lvls will be like in another 7 months or so?
and i still dont have my concept and basics correct.
so im going to be so bloody dead.
DEAD. i mean real dead.
cos i think im going to kill myself anyway.
i need someone godly to teach me.
AHHH GOD SAVE ME.

it seems like life is so tough.
its a labour.
real labour.
so difficult being alive yeah?
i have to worry about every shit things in life.
my studies my piano my everything.
and those people whom i trust hurts me.
wtf i aint going to trust any shit again.
and those people whom i think are shitfaces are getting worse.
gahhh.
life really sucks.
im too bloody stressed.
fatality.

I WANT TO WATCH THE L MOVIE.
gosh hes so hot luh.
if i have at least half his brains
i will go hooray.
that poor little thing died in the end.
and i wonder why he doesnt get fat at all
with all those calories hes eating everyday.
cool.

i just watched a really lame vid on youtube.
lol laughing my guts out of my now.
TEEHEE.

valentines was cool.
yay im packed with chocolates and sweets.
I LOVE CHOCOLATES.

sian have to go out lerhs.
bb.

2008-02-03T22:39:00.000+08:00

post #200.

hooray.
its the 200th post.
haha.
and i shall dedicate this post to SARAH WONG (BONG).
its her birthday today!
and i shall be the last to wish her happy birthday and the first to wish her happy belated birthday.
haha.

tmr i have 2 tests.
omfg bio and geog.
why must they put these 2 on the same day.
it gives hell.
i shall put all the blame on the person who arranges the timetable.
i think i will flunk the tests.
grrr.

fri after sch went out with my mommy.
to hunt for my new year clothes.
haha.
cos all the clothes in my wardrobe are BLACK.
including the pants and most of the shorts
haha.
cny cannot wear black mah.
ltr become suay.
so actually wanted to find a -EEU- bright coloured one
but in the end i got brown.
haha.
at least its better den red and pink.
i aint gay ok :D

and sat morn went to tuition.
susan chan ponned.
im not sure whether he she ponned or not
lol.
so left me and rachel.
and den went back lakeside mrt to meet huizhi.
i told her dun come so early she still come so early.
haish.
too bad have to wait.
and den went back to my house to get my books and the stuff
and den went to the mac near my house there
it was deserted as usual
but i saw jeremiah mrchia and mswasson thr.
lol.
the tj mac another nh ppl territory liao.
and yay i managed to know how to do the chap 11 physics liao!
haha.
the mac thr bloody cold.
really cold.
i was like shivering like hell.
huizhi's small little jacket din help.
sry la i fat.

and today
slacked all my time away
and tmr got 2 stupid tests
die liao lor
ltr go burn midnight oil liao.
and i sneezing the hell out of me now.
grrr.
the weathers cold dahh.

i go study now lol.
bb :D

2008-01-30T19:47:00.000+08:00

post #199.

bleah.
a wednesday.
i had monday blues tuesday blues and wednesday blues.
and i shall have thursday blues too.
i seem to be emo every morning and it usually lasts the whole day.
and den i can suddenly turn mad den back to emo again.
cool huh.

on sat
went to library with huizhi and xinyi
we early early wake up go chop table and pillar with socket
lol and den ard at 4 plus liddat
we were sort of playing
and making noise
but MINIMAL noise
and den theres this fat fat guy come from the back and stared at the laptop screen
den i shock tio and thought "WTF ARE YOU DOING? IDIOT AH?"
and i thought he was some sicko who was very interested in wad we are doing
den i forgot whether he got say anything or not
and den he went back and we started playing again
and den he come back and say "PLAY SO LONG STILL HAVEN PLAY ENOUGH AH"
and den we were like wtf
idiot.
his table had the laptop and the cables
wan use socket come earlier chop socket lar
who ask u so pig slp so late
come earlier lar stupid
and den after we left he went to use the socket
wahlau idiot
wan use socket ask nicely den we will let u use lar
wtf u think u who?
king ah
fat ass.

and den on sun.
basically just slacked my day away.
mon also.
had co but half-ponned it.
was trying to do some physics outside co rm with the distraction of cynthia wee and damien lim doing their dno dno wad thing which is very lame and they KEEP doing it.
omfg.
and den i taught regina some maths HAHA.
tuesday had chem spa.
and my boiling tube EXPLODED woohoo.
and nicholas liu was just standing beside
i was trying to get to the temperature and den it just exploded.
woahh.
and my shirt kena the hydrochloric acid.
and i felt happy.
haha cos no nid continue the experiment le mah
just clear all the stuff up and copy the results LOL.
but i scared my shirt kena corroded away lar.
den i'll receive my hell from my mother.
btw my paper corroded.
and den after that went back home piano and den do hw at night.
and i slpt late.
gahhh.
i cant slp late now.
it will drain all my energy out of me the next day.
and i consider 12am late now.
woah.

xiaohua is 101% confirm pregnant.
she walk slow slow.
lie down slow slow.
roll slow slow.
run slow slow
come down the stairs slow slow
do everything slow slow.
but she is still as cute :D
but i dno whr her bf is now D:

i shall eat my dinner.
my mother throwing fiery stares at me.
mwahahhaa.
bb

2008-01-25T23:36:00.000+08:00

post #198.

thursday passed by.
for the whole day i was nervous.
and somehow emo.
cannot stand the tension of having to receive the olvl results.
my heart was beating bloody fast.
and it feels like its dropping out any minute.
but luckily i got a1.
haha.
and i finally went PHEW.
but shortly after that i was emo again.
i guess i had stressed myself too much the previous day,
thinking of the silliest things.
sigh.

and X was irritating as usual.
i see X i was more emo liao.
that bloody X did things so purposely and loathingly.
someday i would really love to box him in the eye, punch him in the nose, kick him to the group, jump and step on him until hes flat, chop him into pieces, brew him in potato suit, and feed him to the penguins.
BAWK.

i just lvled audi.
haha.
now im a lvl 20 clubber le yay.
i finally passed my license
after trying for at least 8 times i think.
it isnt easy to pass the lvl 20 license
especially when you cant chain and cant 8k
i had a hard time passing.
i must start training 8k le.
but i noe i will be lazy to do it anyway.
bawk bawk.
shit im starting to talk like a penguin.

theres so many tests coming up.
and from next tuesday onwards i shall have test(s) everyday.
pathetic.
i think the teachers want to give us a cny surprise.
how sweet of them.
*note the sacarsm.

and i suddenly thought of mr arthur kok's story telling session.
being the english god and all those, he said to his army mate,
"I feel like fainting." with all those perfect pronunciation and blah blah blah.
and his friend, being the typical singaporean like the rest of us, just replied,
"FAINT LAR!"
lol.
it was very funny when he said it.
the whole class burst into laughter.
cos arthur kok is like the ENGLISH GOD WHO USES PERFECT ENGLISH AND NOT ANY SLANG AND SINGLISH.
lol.
the moment he said all those "lah" "leh" "lor" etc etc
its very funny.
lol bernard has a competitor in english now.

and great news.
I GREW ONE CM.
haha.
164cm now.
2 years grow one cm.
pathetic.
but at least better than nothing right
lol.
at least i grew
haha.
and i realised that i have a pair of 75cm<>
LOLOLOL.
my legs are longgggg.
and i went to re-measure my weight.
LOL I LOST 2 KG. HAHAHA.
i shant tell what my weight is :X

and i officially kena-ed all 4dms.
haha.
im a pro.

it will be yanchngs brithday in another like 9min or so?
so, HAPPY BRITHDAY YANCHNG!

so good lar.
can watch nc16.
i cant even sneak in.
i must wait for another like 6 MORE MONTHS.
im going to make sure that i will watch a nc16 movie after my birthday, which will reach in another 6 MONTHS.

and i have been sitting on the floor since 7pm.
my butt hurts D:

i ate my teeth separators ytd.
4 of them.
around there.
i was like eating the chicken steak my mum made.
and den after eating i felt that my teeth was a bit of weird?
and den i went to check in the mirror
and found that my teeth separators are all gone.
now only left with 1 or 2.
haha.
pathetic.

im going to sleep late today.
cos theres gary on yulebaifenbai today.
i wan watch it since i missed the afternoon program.
haha.
yay gary.
and i saw the supersunshine ad already
OOOH I WANT BUY THE ALBUM.
haha.
btw when i saw the ad i was playing audi.
the song was magic world 185bpm
that is the fastest song in audi.
just nice i was playing with db4 too
and after watching the ad,
I DID THE CFM FOR 185.
for the first time.
haha.
supersunshine brings me luck.
hahha i loveee garyy :D

okaye im bored now.
i shall go watch princess hours already.
byee :D

2008-01-21T22:24:00.000+08:00

post #197.

today is a monday.
and monday means GOING TO BE TORTURED FOR ANOTHER 4 DAYS in my dictionary.
and i think its about the same with the others.
FRIDAY CAN U COME QUICKLY? I MISS YOU SO MUCH.

and ct1 is starting on 18/2/08.
bloody fast.
its the second week after cny.
dowan T_T

and the olvls results are gg to be out on this thurs.
i bloody scared i cannot get at least an a2 for my chinese.
i dowan drop hcl.
i wan go jj.
I WAN A1 FOR CHINESE.
i scared scared.
really worried dao.
i think i will have sleepless nights.
omfg i feel like crying):
im prepared to go emo for 1 month D:
I HAVE DEPRESSION LIAOS.
and i suddenly feel so angry with myself over nothing.

am currently listening to vitas.
omfg i salute him.
he can reach a note so bloody high.
VITAS I SALUTE U.

i missed gary's supersunshine advertisement today.
grrr.
i wan see.
angryyyyD:

and todays co was erm..
went in at 3 plus
cos pei cynthia go photocopy stuff
and den prac prac a while
break
and den after break i dun think i stepped inside again lol
was outside slacking half of the time away
HALF.
the other half i was trying to do my physics worksheet.
haha.
arent i so guai1.
lol.
and hwc was angry today :O

i shall go have my slp now.
tmr will be another tedious day for me.
PIANO THEORY.
im gg to tear the book alr.
bb

2008-01-20T19:56:00.000+08:00

post #196.

bloody weekend.
gone so bloody fast.
i really wonder how i spent my weekends.
gahh.
its gone so bloody fast.

on friday
after i reach home
nua3 a bit and den bathe and den go tuition until 8.
den reached home at 8.30.
and den i nua-ed somemore
and den i went to slp.
i dno why
just felt extremely tired that day.

and den on sat.
woke up early in the morning again.
went tuition.
came back
and den play com a while
and den unpleasant things happened
went to emo again
and den slp until night
wake up
read comic and daydream
and den it was midnight already
went to slp again

and den sun
woke up
nua3 on bed
go cook maggi mee for lunch since my mum nt at home
and den bian1 eat bian1 watch tv
and den went back to rm slack
tried doing maths
but i gave up
and den tried to fixed the chinese thingy on my com
and den my bloody com so bloody lag
and den nua3 until now den ok.
finally my com can type chinese.
ltr i go makan den bathe den pia the last bit of my homework
den go slp and get ready for sch.

thats how my weekend past so stupidly.

just now was doing that stupid chinese 心情笔记
was on the topic of ur fav song
and den i wrote SUPERWOMAN :D
i really love that song like hell lar
i dno why also.
it makes me feel peaceful
lol
or else i would be like trying to kill someone every day.
and den i wrote super long for that dumb topic.
3 pages lol.
cos i added in the lyrics.
lol
summore in my super messy handwriting.
lol.
lala i loveee SUPERWOMAN.
cos its sung by gary.

and speaking of gary
i want to buy his new album
SUPERSUNSHINE.
haha.
i just love his SUPER series.
lol.
if you ask me how i get to know gary,
blame it on TEOHUIZHI.
cos during sec 1 she sitting beside me
and den she wrote the SUPERWOMAN lyrics on her notebook
and den kip listening to it everytime.
btw that time i still din noe who gary.
and den she influence me.
hahaha.
TEOHUIZHI ITS ALL YOUR FAULT.
:D

and i caught 200 pounds beauty recently.
yar imagine how lag i was, to watch it until now.
haha.
its a nice nice nice show.
and the most irritating part was how the guy treated hannah was she was fat and ugly
and den when hannah became pretty he was another person
pew.
hannah is PRETTY.
and she has a pretty dog.
lol. so CUTE.
aye, BANG.
haha.

its tv time.
haha.
bb.
huizhi ur present i owe u first
lol.
got time den make for you.
remind me lol

2008-01-15T18:51:00.000+08:00

post #195.

just got back from piano.
ah i din die too badly.
at least i feel that i sight read better now lol
not so much mistakes.
haha.
and i so suddenly fell in love with kulau and bach.
kulau for his sonatinas and bach for his inventions.
they can write such beautiful music.

today school started with flag raising.
403 up there leading the school singing
lol HILARIOUS!
and den had attire check
okaye seriously my class is like one of the last to sit down lar.
but im a good student
i tuck in my shirt and i dun wear ankle socks.
lol.

and today during geog lesson,
aurelius yeo said some people say wearing long pants with ankle socks would be telling people that they are GAY.
lol. funny.
the way he said it is funny.
and he attire-checked us o.o

and today i had to chiong my compo during maths.
i din have the energy to plan the compo yesterday
and den after maths was eng.
so have to chiong lor bobian.

and yesterday i was roaming around in neopets
and den i won the FRUITS MACHINE
haha.
they gave me a shitty radioactive muffin and 10k neopoints.
and i won again now.
lol.
i got 2.5kneopoints and a buzzer.
lol.
haha.
lucky^^

and i posted some incident that happened today on wordpress.
read le confirm dulan with the person.
kaypoh people who wan noe get pw from me:D

bb

2008-01-14T22:41:00.000+08:00

post #194.

today is monday.
i totally lost the energy to do work
cos im so bloody tired after a bloody long day in school
and i reached home at 7plus.

i dno why i just feel unhappy in sch today lar.
so many bloody things makes me pissed.
and i am actually glad that i aint so naive to just see the surface
i got to see the underneath
so im quite of mentally prepared.
and i don give it a damn
i just dont believe it like tooth fairies
cos my tooth fairy hasnt gave me a gift for my 4 pluck-ed teeth.

im terribly tired of school already.
i got so sick and tired of it
gah.

chinese new year is coming
half yay half no.
yay for the angbaos $.$
no for the omfg a and c.
why cant they just leave me alone.
busybodies.

and yay im able to brush my teeth normally already.
my toothless gaps dun bleed as and when they like anymore.

and my parents bought me 2 boxes of DOVE chocolate amicelli.
i dno how it spells but i noe how it tastes.
Y-U-M-M-Y!
i just have the passion and love for chocolates.

and someone told me something that made me so bloody pissed off today.
i dno wads the prob with them lar.
i dno wad are they jealous about.
whatever shit i do is none of their business.
can please stop putting the blame on other people like
"stop trying to protect her"
so are you people jealous that she is closer to me than you?
dun bully her just because she is kind and doesnt talk back
she doesnt but i will
who you think i am lar.
wtf
accusing people of doing things they din do are for idiots who are trying to make themselves look clever
but actually they look even dumber.
and what do you know about the things i do
do you even noe what is it in the first place huh?
bloody people
i shall be mean and hope you will fall down.
boo on you.

and theres this idiot.
much worser than those above
omfg i (really really really really really) x infinity dun like this person
i really hope you will go away, since you are so bloody nice.

if you asked me again
i would tell you that i will never ever belief in all those crap again
its pointless.

and i hope there isnt any more tests until chinese new year ends or something
but that is highly impossible.
the life of sec4s.
depressing.
i have a high chance of suffering from depression.
i dno why but i just know.

i always hoped that im a ninja living in a ninja world
so i can go around assassinating people to complete my mission
kill kill kill
isnt that like wonderful
and i hoped that there is such a ninja world in reality
sorry i have been reading too much manga lately.

ytd after watching the mummy returns
its a nice show actually
and it feels not too bad to be watching old shows after a period of time.
the rock is cool :D
and the third movie of the mummy series
the person acting evelyn was changed to someone else.
seriously i like the original actress
she seems more like husband and wife with the male lead.
and i think she suits the role more than the one now.

it will be another 6 months before i can watch my first nc16 movie.

i feel like falling sick
but somehow i couldnt make myself sick.
i tried sore throat but it doesnt make me feverish
having a flu makes no diff cos i sneeze everyday.
gahh :/

and theres this movie clip i watched on youtube
this lady is extremely irritating and annoying
its surprising that aaron chan finds it amusing.
to me its annoying.
the lady talks like some retardic person and has a so-unsuitable-for-her haircut and smiles like shes a retarded infant.
gahh i cant stand her.

tmr i have piano again.
and i hadnt practiced at all since the holidays had started last year.
im going to be so dead tmr.
im going to get killed by my teacher.
and i seriously hate theory.
its a cheemology, which is a study of cheem things for cheem people

i feel like slping already.
really tired.
and i hadnt done any homework today.
so im going to be double dead tmr.
bless me :X
bye ><

2008-01-13T13:26:00.000+08:00

post #193.

its another weekend.
friday was e-learning day
so there wasnt any school.
hooray.
thank godness for that i could slp longer.
and den woke up at around 8.30am to do the asknlearn thingy.
and when i tried to do the quiz
the whole darn website was jammed and crashed
too many people trying to log into it.
and den had to wait until around 11plus to do the quiz.

and den i went out with my mum
go imm do the dno wad thing
it was paiseh so i shant say.

on sat i went out to payalebar to get my pay.
lol.
i still had pay owed
lala.
and den went to imm to get some new year clothes
ok its black again
so nvm
i lovee black :D

and den currently im watching the mummy returns on my bros laptop.
lol.
just now i was watching the ant bully.
lol.
i think after these shows i will then proceed to my homework,
which isnt a lot left
its just the amaths trigo worksheet that i hadnt done.
the rest are finished.
im so guai to finish them.
haha.

and den tmrs another start of the week.
sian double sian triple sian.
thinking of school makes me drowsy.
zz.
sians.
maybe i should get back to my show.
haha.
byee :D

2008-01-10T19:02:00.000+08:00

post #192.

another weekend has arrived.
time flies.
why dun swim):
liddat olvls will come slower :D

i had 2 tests this week alr.
can imagine the stress of sec4s?
stress-ed up down left right.
the maths test was the holiday homework.
and i managed finally finished it on the day of the test.
lol.
and for the test i was like managed to chiong finish the paper
but the qns are like weird weird liddat
lol dno why
and i forgot how to do one dumb dumb dumb question
GAH.
and the chem test today was difficult.
lol.
and i studied like hell ytd ans slpt so late D:

and den after that was co.
i was outside there thinking wan go in or not
i dun feel like gg in lar.
but in the end still went in for co
for the sake of my attendance.
and i realised that co songs are:
RENEW REUSE RECYCLE.
-.-

tmr e-learning day yay!
no sch><

and on the bus just now
i was like fell asleep.
and den slp slp slp kip banging my head on the window.
sia la pain lar.
like around 5-6 times liddat.
lol damn paiseh.

sians ah i shall go sleep.
bye

2008-01-05T21:40:00.000+08:00

post #191.

school started.
first day of school.
sian.
not normal sian.
is sibei sian.
but we changed a few teachers.
eng from ms kali to mr arthur kok.
geog from darentay to aurelius yeo.
nvm i dno how to spell his name.
emaths from mrs leuar to mrs lee
i dno nvr see her lol.
think should be around here lar.
lol.
and we got a new coform!
ms yvonne lim!
first day of school already damn pissed.
becos of one stupid fking retard idiot LOUSIEST PERSON ON EARTH.
nahbei spoil my mood.
on second day of sch
homework starts coming in.
and den i went to the dentist
had my tooth extracted.
4 at one go.
lol.
if take 2 each time have to bear with the pain for 2 times.
why not extract all at once.
lol.
and they put this tooth separator in between my teeth at the back
its really really really really really uncomfortable.
and third day of sch
more homework again.
im depressed.
lol.
tmr i start chiong finish all my homework.
today slack lol.

and today was the cca extravaganza.
lol
co decided to scam a lot of sec 1s.
lol.
and i was slacking the day away as usual.
wahahha.
and den after that went home
slp whole day
lol.

siann nahh.
i wan watch tv.
omfg the dogs sooooooo cute :D
bb.

2008-01-01T21:18:00.000+08:00

post #190.

first post of 2008.

today i went shopping with my bro and my cousin.
believe me i was forced.
just because i mentioned that i want to buy a new wallet
cos the old one was getting gay-ier and gay-ier.
and den i tio forced to go vivo
and den those aliens dun even get tired after walking around for one hour.
nahbei my leg wan break liao.
nvm i still managed to get my wallet
and i got 2 notebooks as well.
and comics connection no new comics sia.
i sad ):

and i went to jb for past few days.
nahbei waste my time again.
cannot stand.
den my mum dun let me go my cousin house.
nahbei waste my time.
i reject to go back jb again ):

i reject schooling(:

yay i learnt a bit of cantonese alr.
by watching cantonese shows lol.
chenmongkat.
LOLOL.

zzz feel like slping liao.
lol. tmr go sch receive my christmas present from teohuizhi.
wahaha.
bb.

2007-12-31T19:01:00.000+08:00

post #189.

okaye.
last post for 2007.

hmm.
what shall i say?
2007 passed by
real fast.
i cant believe im going to be a sec4 in just 4 hours time.
i rather go back to sec1.
no olvls stress.
i just dont feel right to be a sec4.
maybe its because of how slacky i have been for the past year.
never listened in class.
thats why.
keep playing like mad.
thats why.
and about 302,
uhm its really -censored-
i shant say :X
acutally it isnt too bad.
its just a few spoilers thats all.
lol im one of the spoilers i admit.
bleah.

seriously i dont look forward to 2008.
AT ALL.
im very sure that no sec3 will ever look forward to 2008.
only idiots will do that.
ask me why.
cos 2008 OLVL YEAR LEH.
UNLESS YOU ARE MAD OR ELSE U WILL NOT LOOK FORWARD TO IT.
yeah so.
hmmms.

okaye this person <<>
im not so dumb.
heck care you.

okaye.
i want to get back to the last audition playing before 2007 ends.
and for new year wishes:
I WAN VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY GOOD OLVL GRADES.
yay.

happy new year 2008:D

2007-12-26T22:11:00.000+08:00

post #188.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHELWONG!

ehms.
i worked again.
on christmas day.
having to work on christmas day is so pathetic.
and i went home at 2am.
terrible.
din get to enjoy my christmas at all.
PATHETIC.
and i still saw a mighty mighty big cockroach.
scared the lights out of me.
fking huge leh that one.
omfg.
and i went
AHHHHH WTFWTFWTF.
den i ran.
embarrassing -.-

i gonna eat fossil fuel ltr :D

shit
schools starting in another like 5 days time.
shit shit shit i haven done any holiday homework.
im a lazy bastard.

im waiting for my christmas present.
im waiting for my brother to get his pay so i can have my christmas present
wahaha.
and im waiting for my pay also.
haha.

i think i will have to put braces soon.
shit shit shit.
metal on my teeth.
and i have to taste metal everyday.
yuck.

and i saw this article on the newspaper just now
a man jumped down onto the mrt track when the mrt was reaching the station
and it was captured on the cctv on the mrt platform
and when the staff went to find the man
THEY CANT FIND ANYTHING
eh weird huh
if the man din went invisible
then it was something else from somewhere else.
lol.
dowan scare myself.
zzz
feel like slping.
lol.
bb

2007-12-23T12:04:00.000+08:00

post #187.

gah.
back from cruise.
one word: BORING.
wtf
waste my time sia
go there
do nothing but eat and sleep
shit i got fatter.
first night i went
knn had to wait at harbor for 5 fking hours
nahbei waste my time
second day wake up
stay in room watch tv
and den go eat lunch
and den go back room sleep
and den wake up go eat dinner
and den go back room sleep again
third day wake up
go eat breakfast
and den go back room watch tv and sleep
and den wake up again
pack my stuff
and den go home liao
BORING RIGHT
nahbei waste my time
i rather go work and earn more money sia
D:

im still coughing like siao
cough cough cough non stop
grr
im gg out ltr to get my brothers christmas present
his dno wad tian long ba bu
i dun care im gg make him buy a whole set of comics for me
lala :D

huizhi bought me tangyuzhe's album :D
the songs are nice lol :D
so i kept fan her with aiwo
lol.

i posted some juicy news in wordpress.
lol.
JUICY.

lala i wan go take advent calendar de prizes liao.
bb.

2007-12-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

post #186.

gah.
tmr gg on cruise.
i dowan go lar.
ltr like titanic or poseidon liddat
I DOWAN MATI SIA.
thr also nothing to do
go thr three days
take care of kids
see all adults
nahbei i damn sian
no one pei me
how i hope i can get my friends to join me also
knn

today work
went to cwp
i wan go suntec sia
there nicer
lol
got a lot ppl play with me
lol
damn funny
i should have played catching there
lol
I WAN GO SUNTEC LAR
AFTER THIS SUN NO MORE LIAO
SO I WAN GO THERE PLAY CATCHING T.T
and den i wan revenge the staff thr also
they damn damn damn damn DAMN guailan.
idiot

i bought 2 new comics today :D
haha.
actually not new lar
is the continuation of the series i bought
lala :D

i dont like to lend my handphone to other people
a while can but 3 days cannot
wtf
can understand
can you stand it if i borrow your wallet with everything inside and return you 3 days ltr?
also cant stand it right
yar lar all my fault lar
i very xiaoqi lar
knn
spoil my fking mood

bb

2007-12-17T00:53:00.000+08:00

bleah.

im sick.
sorethroat flu headache and whatever
and i still have to work
gahh.

today something fking stupid happened.
make me fking dulan like dno wad
i was making one of the samples so that the sales would be better
and den theres this she-thinks-she-is-so-fking-clever auntie
came up to me and said
too many samples liao
customer cannot that the things
and den she went to complain to my boss
i was like WTF
no samples how to sell the stuff
she so clever she dun use samples sell finish everything for me see lar
talk until like that
customers cannot shift the samples aside and den take the stuff meh
customers stupid arh
not every is stupid like u ok
see things block den dno do wad
SHIFT IT ASIDE LAR
stupid
omfg
nothing to do come look for trouble
u dun let me see you outside
i will make u feel terrible
you make me feel that you are an auntie from kampung
dno anything or our system den shut up lar
make me kena scolding for nothing at all
wtf

and my house is quite crowded.
so many people :D
lalala.

and my stupid brother
i wan use com he also wan use
everytime i have to let him use it
EVERY SINGLE TIME
i wan do something he wan come fight with me
i dno wads the problem with him
i noe ur history good lar
can dun keep showing off how good your history is or not
i told you already
I DUN LIKE HISTORY
SO STOP BOTHERING ME WITH HISTORY
AND YOUR THAT GOOD-FOR-NOTHING FRIEND YANGWEICHENG.
now i have to type his name out cos im really getting pissed already.
stop asking me all those silly questions lar
wtf
cant you see im dulan
gahh.

shit my mum kip peeking into my privacy
i dno wads wrong with everybody now
bloody fk.

zzz
bb.

2007-12-11T23:31:00.000+08:00

and oh
before i forget.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TEO HUI ZHI.
YOU LOVE TANK.
YOU LOVE DANSON.
YOU LOVE GARY TOO!
haha.

wait i get ur birthday present from my boss house
haha.
man man wait bahs ><

bye:D

2007-12-11T23:16:00.000+08:00

bleah.

working is tiring.
i have been working since like mon
until sunday.
tiring tiring tiring.
gahh.
and one day pay is only like $50.
and den is like must stand from morning to night
10.30am to 10pm.
money is hard to earn
and when i want to spend it
its like i will think twice and thrice and blah blah blah.
i love money :D

now my whole family is like crazy over tang2 xin1 feng1 bao4.
ok lar that show is not bad lar.
is just got this woman so fking qian da.
damn scheming like hell.
cunning.

and i bought 4 comics yesterday :D
hahaha.
im happy happy happy.
lala
cos ytd i brought my aunt and cousin to jp to walk walk around
jp is really walk until sian liao
lol.
nothing to do
only comics connection is nice :D
hahaha.

tmr have to work again
tmr tmr tmr.
is dno at suntec or causeway.
blah.

and den my forced me to go to cruise.
eee i dowan.
ltr like titanic or poseidon how
all mati one leh
i dowan to die early
i still got a lot of things to do de lehs.
i dowan to die~
and the adults there
omfg D:
confirm ask me take care of all those little kids de.
T_T
not i dowan
is just i dun really like kids
bleahh
i just want to go genting~
there very cold cold cold!
brrrrrr
i love it baby :D

eee next year olvl i dowan lol.
and theres still this whole pile of holiday homework haven do.
no time :D
lalala.
wait until last minute den do bah :D
hahaha.
like always ><

and audition T_T
lost touch.
omfg tio trashed like hell.
bastard.
i lost touch
im a nooob clubber.
haha.
yay.

sians i go play.
byeee :D
must enjoy my last free day before i work again :D